I've been a bit of a yoyo dieter for about 2 years now, I'm 21 years old and now I'm the heaviest I've ever been because I've let my weight get out of hand this summer.I'm 5 foot 11 and I weigh 12 stone. This makes me seriously unhappy because as sad as it is to find how shallow people are, people really do act differently with me (unsurprisingly-especially men), when I'm lighter ie. I get a lot more attention,so recently I have been feeling down if i am with friends and they get more attention.
I want to lose weight so so bad and therefore just don't understand why I am so bad at sticking to a diet if I know being thin is all I want. The worst thing about all of this is that for as long as I can remember, weight is all I think about. I think about my weight and attempting to lose it at least once every few minutes- I swear!! It makes me unhappy, and I have such little self esteem now as I'm constanlty thinking that people are looking at me. I even get nervous to see my friends and family because I am scared of what they will think. I'm embarrased to eat infront of people now because I am so worried. I just constantly wish to be thin again. Is this how it is for everyone trying to lose weight? It occupies all your thoughts? I can't even concentrate in my lessons as I just sit thinking of how many lbs I need to lose etc etc and over my exam period it was so hard to concentrate. I'm just wondering if I can I stop this and if is it normal??
I want to lose weight so so bad and therefore just don't understand why I am so bad at sticking to a diet if I know being thin is all I want. The worst thing about all of this is that for as long as I can remember, weight is all I think about. I think about my weight and attempting to lose it at least once every few minutes- I swear!! It makes me unhappy, and I have such little self esteem now as I'm constanlty thinking that people are looking at me. I even get nervous to see my friends and family because I am scared of what they will think. I'm embarrased to eat infront of people now because I am so worried. I just constantly wish to be thin again. Is this how it is for everyone trying to lose weight? It occupies all your thoughts? I can't even concentrate in my lessons as I just sit thinking of how many lbs I need to lose etc etc and over my exam period it was so hard to concentrate. I'm just wondering if I can I stop this and if is it normal??