Katycakes
Stubborn tortoise
Just seen your post Lexie, PLEASE don't beat yourself up... as others have said, draw a line and move on. I can totally see how this happened (driving test... arghhh) but you KNOW you haven't failed at the diet, not unless you chuck the whole thing in to spite yourself, and you are way too smart for that. And 1000 cals is not the end of the world... it feels bad, I know, but I bet it's a whole lot better than past binges may have been.
I think a lot of us here on minis like the feeling of being in control, in life and around food, and Cd gives us that. It's maybe WHY we like CD as opposed to other diets. But when we slip, that's when it gets scary, and that out-of-control feeling is so powerful it threatens to engulf us. But... it won't, unless we let it. And you're not gonna, I know. So curl up with your dog and drink your coffee and tetra, and let the shaky feeling subside, because it will. And then learn from this, because the biggest lessons come wrapped up inside the scariest things.
I think KD may be right and that soon you need to step up to 810. Don't be scared of that. You wil still lose... and learn lots all the way about food. I loved my 2 months on SS but the learning started on 810 and those were lessons I BADLY needed. I lost more on the steps than on SS in the end. I am still learning, because getting to goal is just the start, if you are someone who has binge-eat issues and a long history of being nuts around food, especially if emotional stuff is a trigger. I had a day like that yesterday, after row with OH, and I recognised the same 'switch-off' of feelings that you describe, that allowed me to hoover up assorted foods I should not have had, but the difference was I saw it way sooner and stopped it, and though it was still a bad day it wasn't the end of the world.
Nor was your binge... and in a few weeks maybe you will see it as an important part of the CD journey, something that pushed you to look for answers, tactics, different ways to handle difficult feelings. Think I am rambling on now... what it boils down to is, hope you feel better soon hon and big hugs, & PM anytime if you want to moan, I'm always around.
xxx
I think a lot of us here on minis like the feeling of being in control, in life and around food, and Cd gives us that. It's maybe WHY we like CD as opposed to other diets. But when we slip, that's when it gets scary, and that out-of-control feeling is so powerful it threatens to engulf us. But... it won't, unless we let it. And you're not gonna, I know. So curl up with your dog and drink your coffee and tetra, and let the shaky feeling subside, because it will. And then learn from this, because the biggest lessons come wrapped up inside the scariest things.
I think KD may be right and that soon you need to step up to 810. Don't be scared of that. You wil still lose... and learn lots all the way about food. I loved my 2 months on SS but the learning started on 810 and those were lessons I BADLY needed. I lost more on the steps than on SS in the end. I am still learning, because getting to goal is just the start, if you are someone who has binge-eat issues and a long history of being nuts around food, especially if emotional stuff is a trigger. I had a day like that yesterday, after row with OH, and I recognised the same 'switch-off' of feelings that you describe, that allowed me to hoover up assorted foods I should not have had, but the difference was I saw it way sooner and stopped it, and though it was still a bad day it wasn't the end of the world.
Nor was your binge... and in a few weeks maybe you will see it as an important part of the CD journey, something that pushed you to look for answers, tactics, different ways to handle difficult feelings. Think I am rambling on now... what it boils down to is, hope you feel better soon hon and big hugs, & PM anytime if you want to moan, I'm always around.
xxx
