Slimming down the aisle
I feel rubbish. I'm proud of how I've done on this diet so far but I still feel so unhappy with how I look. I'm going to London tomorrow for a couple of days and I'm going to a friends gig where he's asked me to take photos too. It's really complicated but I don't think he really realises what I look like i.e. that I'm so fat. And it's like I don't want to go see him on Tuesday and him see me and just be like... oh, you're bigger than I realised. Even if he doesn't say it, he's probably going to think it. I probably would. I'd set myself a goal to fit into this dress that I had by this week and I'm a good few inches off of it, so a few weeks behind. I know I had Italy and a couple of weeks off, but still. I know I need to stop being silly and pull myself together, but it's easier said than done. I just have to wonder how I'm ever going to feel good about myself. No matter how I look or how much weight I lose. Does that make any sense?? Probably not! I should shut up now.