Hi cathin, well done for making a string decision to be 100% again, itvwill be worth it for the wedding. I went through a tough time a coupke of weeks ago, feeling down and despondent, whats the point etc etc, I had lots of support from clara, sb and others and thankfully have come out the the other side.
I am going through the menopause too, but have opted for naturalnhormone cream which has almost cut the nightime waking out and 'tropical moments' are no more which is great.
This journey of ours affects us all deep down, and you need to find a strength deep down which is there to keep going. I have uncovered and now am starting to deal with some childhood stuff I thought I had dealt with and its really tough going, tears most days on my own, but I am working through it.
Writing it down on here almost seem to makevit easier to deal with, rather than in my head, looking at the words, I was able to acknowledge it. The cbt is the route of course, but it would never have been dealt with otherwise, and was bubbling underneath.
You have been off for a kong time in business, things have to move on and I am sure it was not done without thinking of you, take it as a positive step, change happens.
Do be kind to yourself, have your treats, you really have been through the mill and deserve me time, hope you did speak to hubby, he is so considerate, but will not have understood it from your pointvif view, you need to be out socialising to continue your life!!
Reallt hope you feel better about yiyeself and have a good wednesday, stay positive, I bougjt a suze 12 top 4 weeks after starting and hung it on my wardrobe, thinking 'one day' but not deep down believing I ever would get into it, well I am and its a bit big now, I started at 22! Its my avatar, so you can do it, October will be here and you will be so so glad you stuck it.
Jx