Cheekychinchilla's food and stuff

[cheekychinchilla]

Monday Food: The last of my 'naughty' porridge sachets Will have to look for some nice plain porridge now. Just found the sachets helpful coz our scales are rubbish and not very accurate!

Lunch: Golden syrup porridge (HexB1)
2tsp vanilla seeds (2)
Banana
Almond milk (part HexA1)

Tea: 1syn portion of chilli (1)
Mexican rice
Salad & super low dressing
Cheese (HexA2)
Tbsp each of Extra Light Mayo and Sweetcorn Relish (1.5)

Snacks: 2 broken up Alpen Lights (HexB2) with sliced up grapes, 1tsp of maple syrup (0.5), and a crumble flavour shape (0.5)

Drinks: Coffee. Squash.

Syns used: 5.5
Syns left: 9.5

 

[Barbette]

Have you ever wrote a dream diary? It's supposed to help resolve the problems that are causing the dreams in the first place, they say your dreams are your minds way projecting your worries and sometimes health problems. It might be interesting to look them up and see what they mean. Do you dream more when you're stressed? I know I do when I have a lot going on.
It's really hard to break a sleep routine once you're in one, I hope you get it sorted and get some proper sleep x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

I used to keep a dream diary. Kept one going for almost 10 years. But I found I dreamt more and I remembered more of them. I'd managed to train myself to remember dreams with greater detail so that I could write them down. I'm just a chronic nightmare sufferer. They're not night terrors, thank fully, but either incredibly vivid dreams or nightmares. Have noticed they've increased since being prescribed sleeping pills, but I'd rather get some sleep with nightmares than none at all. Vivid dreams and nightmares are a major side effect of anti-depressants as well as depression and anxiety. So, screwed really lol!
Couldn't even tell you how long it's been going on for. A very long time, since I was at least a teenager. I have more nightmares when I'm stressed or if I have something on my mind. But the vivid dreams are constant. I feel like I never get a proper sleep because my brain just works and works and my subconscious is always at it. Most of the time I can deal with it, but I'm so exhausted at the moment and had such a stressful week this week. They always get to me more when I'm down or struggling.
Stupid bloody brain!!

I got to bed before 1am last night and my light went off just before two. Had a really crappy sleep though and the most bizarre dreams. I woke up more than once thinking "what the hell?!" I don't remember all of it, but some of the themes were deodorant, a cheese grater, the hair product I use from The Body Shop, getting stuck in a shop that turned in to a spa and then a pub ..... :sigh:

I at least got out of bed before 2pm and have had a shower and put some washing in the machine. Off to meet Mum at the shops. I need to go in to the horrible shopping centre, so will take my iPod, for some stuff for the animals, then grab a few bits from Morrison's. x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Tuesday food: Really full from tea and couldn't face another HexB. So swapped my cheese from tea to a HexB and huzzah Just needed some extra syns so having a hot chocolate and one Hotel Chocolat

Lunch: 2 free Quorn sausages
Half a tin of spaghetti
Crispy potatoes
Cheesy scrambled eggs (half HexA1)
Wholemeal toast (HexB1)
Tomato sauce (1)

Tea: Ratatouille from the freezer
Quorn mince
A huge pile of wholemeal spaghetti
Cheese (HexB2)
Salad, beetroot, and super low dressing
Extra light mayo (0.5)

Snacks: Hotel Chocolat choc (3)

Drinks: Coffee. Squash. Diet Coke. Diet Irn Bru. Options made with Almond milk (rest oh HexA1 + 2)

Syns used: 6.5
Syns saved: 18

 

[Barbette]

It's amazing what our brains come up with whilst we sleep, you could never imagine the stuff of dreams awake lol. I must admit I've always remembered my dreams and had pretty weird ones in my time but I put that down to me being a little odd ha ha ha ha. Hopefully as you de-stress from the past week they will calm down a bit and allow you to have some peaceful sleep x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

I honestly don't really have peaceful sleep, like ever! I'm really not exaggerating or after sympathy, just something I know I've got to put up with. Oscar winning performances every night lol!
They do calm a little tho, they're not always so 'disturbing'. The deodorant thing was really weird. I woke up a few times through that and I was absolutely sweating, but it was cold. So strange!!

I try to not remember them now coz it was driving me nuts. But I do remember most of them, maybe just not as in detail as I used to. Probably for the best! I was really in to reading dreams for a while and it is very interesting. It just didn't help me. xx

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Well, Bake Off was a surprise wasn't it?!! I'm really pleased with the outcome tho Wont spoiler it for anyone tho.

Got some decent bargains in the shops, but our local Morrison's has gotten really rubbish lately. They did have Linda M Italian sausages on offer for £1 a box though. I've never had them and they're 0.5 syns each aren't they? Thought they'd be worth a try anyways

Came home and did a proper clean and a big feed for the bunnies. Getting a bit worried about Ralphy. He's much more bouncy and looks happier now, but he's moulting like crazy and developing some really thinning patches of hair. Have upped his food and checked for nasties, but not seen anything. I don't think it's 'serious', just that maybe he's fretting for Ramona Have moved all the stuff out of the way so he can see in to Peggy and Simon's run, that should help him not feel alone. Also gave him extra cuddles And got absolutely covered in hair lol!

Watched that reunion Bake Off thing, even though I've never seen any other series. Might be really silly and download them I NEVER watch reality tv or competition shows, so I've no idea why this has gotten to me. I don't even bake lol! But I absolutely love it

Made a nice tea and even made way too much spaghetti by my standards But was really nice, filling, and the only syns were for mayo. I do like a good tea like that AND I didn't get cake to watch Bake Off with. I was going to and still almost did while I was in Morrison's, but decided to be good and save syns for visiting my friend on Saturday. I like feeling like I've earned a treat like that Mum had bloody cake tho! And she had a chippy tea yesterday. Honestly, she's killing me lol!

Might attempt to have an earlier night, but might watch an ep of something. But what to start?! *scratches chin*

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Urgh! Another terrible night. I must have had at least a billion dreams *looks shifty* That's what it feels like anyway!
One of them was working at the Arena in Liverpool to help out. I was moving these weird shelves/levels and heard some screaming. Another girl had gotten stuck and cut her arm on the shelves. So we got sent together to clean out a room for the artist that was performing.
I think the next dream links in to that, even though I didn't know who we were setting up for.
I was walking through town with a friend and went off on my own. Was just aimlessly walking round and ended up by the train station. The lead singer of Snow Patrol was in this little booth talking to fans a few at a time. He saw me and waved like he knew me. i went over and at some point me and the girl I'd met were in these swish cars with Gary. Can't remember much of it other than Gary was a complete fruit loop and was totally insane. I think this is from the book I'd just finished, coz what he was doing and saying was what this character was. So poor Gary from Snow Patrol got lumped with this crazy woman's personality!!

So weird though! And my friend Michelle text me to say she'd had a dream that Tom Hiddleston had kidnapped her!

I did have loads of dreams though and woke up so many times. My Sister usually has Wednesdays off and she'd ended up getting up early enough to sit with Mum before work. They're so f*cking loud when they're together. They talk really loudly, really bang doors shut, and just make a lot of noise. So that woke me up for a couple of hours. Then a delivery came. Then there were workmen outside. Just ARGH!
I kept jumping awake every time there was a noise. Feel so bloody tired :zz:

Going the cinema later today with Mum. Not decided on a film yet, but have picked my cinema snack lol! Will just have a quiet afternoon watching tv and will do lunch in a min. Like having a late lunch on a cinema day so I'm not as tempted by sweets and stuff. Must be good!!! xx

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Wednesday food:

Lunch: 2 Italian Linda M sausages (1)
A huge jacket spud
BBQ beans with red onion, red pepper, and cherry tomatoes in
Salad with beetroot
Cheese (half HexA1)

Cinema: passion Fruit Danio (1.5)

Tea: 2 Southern Fried Quorn burgers (5) on wholemeal bread (HexB1)
Cheese (rest of HexA1) & pickles
Low fat Supernoodles
Bag of microwave veg - peas, sweetcorn, and carrots
Mayo, tomato sauce, and sweetcorn relish (2)

Snack: Chewy Delight (HexB2)

Drinks: Coffee. Diet Coke. Squash.

Syns used: 9.5
Syns saved: 23.5

 

[Tetris]

Pizzay cheese on toast rocks!!

Really sucky that it ended so badly with John but at least the ending of the ending was civil, you have agreed to go seperate ways and he is not sending angry messages (anymore!) or hassling you further at least! Sometimes a bit of a fall out can help with closure too... Sucks to be left unsure and attempting awkward friendship, so hopefully this works out for the best. Nothing like a messy break up to make you relieved you didnt get stuck further in!

Hope you are doing OK though, bit of a soul sucking situation even if you did initiate it, to have someone turn against you and be so prissy.
*HUG* x

P.s. That 'fake EE' day sounded pretty legit to me!! X

 

[cheekychinchilla]

I really really wanted pizza! Well, it's kind of a permanent state for me So pizza'y cheese on toast worked! I'd felt really sick at the cervery so felt I didn't do it justice and I missed out on dessert. I know I had pick & mix, but :ignore:

He just turned in to this multiple personalty person didn't he? Even changing his mind and tone several times in one email. I know he was confused and upset, as was I. But come on?! i know nobody takes criticism well, but he really went all out and tried very hard to switch it all on me. Even though he had admitted to several things and then went back on them. HE was confused?!
But, yes. So very glad we hadn't gotten any more involved or had been further down the line. And ****** am I glad I had the sense not to sleep with him! Can you imagine the 'leading him on' type accusations if that had of happened?!
A friend of mine said think of this as closing the door on him, but not necessarily locking it. I guess that's one way of looking at it, but I doubt he will contact me again and right now I don't want him to. I guess you never know where the future might lead, but yeah, door's kinda wedged shut with a chair under the handle and a wardrobe against it....

i cba going back but I think my 'fake' EE day didn't have any superfree in the lunch I'd had. Something like that. Anyway, had a green EE day lol!xx

 

[Tetris]

Door wedged comment- LOL! Yeah, cant ever see that re-happening after his hissy fit(s) this week! Lesson learned. When you're better we'll work on getting you that bearded scotsman

 

[cheekychinchilla]

That made me chuckle! It just came to me as like a scene from a horror film. Quick!! Grab everything and put it against the bloody door!!!

Oooh yes! A bearded Scotsman or Scandinavian. Either will do to be perfectly honest, but would quite like to meet a nice Viking Why do we have no viking smiley?! I was having a sort of serious conversation with a friend via text over losing our religious faith. She said *awaits lightening bolt* Damn straight I'd be waiting for a lightening bolt. It means Thor is on his way. Hells yes

Alright, boys aside....

I went to see the Fifth Estate before. And I really enjoyed it! I'm embarrassed to say that I had never really understood the whole Wikileaks thing and remember virtually nothing of the news and reports So, it was like a documentary with a pretty man in a beard - Daniel Brühl. Who, btw, judging by Google, is much prettier with said beard! See, every man is better with a chin cardigan

Also, I decided all of a sudden to do some bloody course work! So I opened the email I glanced at a few months ago from my mentor and read it properly. One of my assignments is "dead good" and can be sent off as is. YAY! And the other just needed a few bits adding to it. I did most of it myself before I went the pics and my friend (newly qualified VN) emailed me some stuff to help me out. And now it's done *fist pump*
Even if I just get a bit done at a time it's better than nothing and at least I can go back and say "It might not be much, but I did this" I'm, hopefully, about 3/4 of the way through a boooooooring assignment on radiography legislation. Talk about making an interesting subject dull as sh*t! That's just taking forever and I'm literally glancing thru two text books and copying out sentences. It is so lame! But that's quite a big one so if I can get that out of the way I can start looking at some other stuff.
Not sure if I'll get any done tomorrow as I'm going in to work to pick up the expensive dog's meds and going to Asda with the Mothership to get party supplies for Saturday when she's finished work. But I've purposefully cleared Friday as a day in all to myself and Mum's off out after work, so might get some work done then. Hopefully! I really do think if I can get this boring legislation one done it might make me want to do other bits lol.

Right, going to watch an ep of The Killing and then go to bed and read. Started a new book last night - Daughter of Smoke and Bone - and flew through the first 4 chapters! Tis good so far x

 

[Tetris]

Well done on geting some work done!! *fist pumpd with you*

I dated a scandinavian.on and off for a couple of years once- my 'first love'. F*cking mental! Dont go there- he was a sociopath with borderline LOL
But Scandinavia is cool, I bet you could find a nice cardigan faced Swede avoid the Finns though, blimey... Though his Mum was Spanish so maybe it wad just a bad cross

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Hahah I don't think you can write off a whole country from one crazy guy and his Mum But yeah, maybe Swedish, Danish, or Finnish. Preferably someone who likes to do silly things like dog sledding, visiting animal parks, walking through national parks and volcanoes, etc... on holiday. Or, even leave the bloody country! Don't get me started on John's 'ideal' holidays *yawn* Lol

I think anyone with Spanish blood in them seems to be a bit 'in your face'. Italian too! Esp blokes!

I'm really pleased I got the work done. I was only editing one piece and Michelle did help me out. But feels good! I want to try and do some more stuff so when I do go back I can at least have a little something to show for my time off.
I was explaining to my friend last night that even though I feel exhausted, I actually feel like my energy is re-charging after months of being drained. I haven't done any course work since I met John and I think that's why. Him, planning dates, trying to re-jigg my life around him, and all that kind of stuff has taken up so much time and effort and energy! I know that sounds a bit mean, but even though we only saw each other once a week most of the time. But I'd spend Mon-Wed trying to see my friends, spend time with Mum, sort out the animals, Dr's appointments and stuff. Thursday I would usually see him and it would exhaust me completely! The weekend was like a bit of a recovery and maybe trying to catch up with the animals and the odd cinema trip because I knew he was working and wouldn't take his phone to work and sleep most of the day. I can't believe seeing someone one day a week caused so much bloody stress! To the point where every text I got from him would make me feel anxious and sick So stupid to do that to myself. But I thought it could be worth the effort. I should have listened to myself, but it was hard to see what my actual feeling were under my usual intimacy issues and my illness symptoms. But I SHOULD have trusted my instincts. :sigh: Never mind....enough of that.

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Thursday food: Feel a bit nervous and sick about going in to work. Needed to eat so went for a relatively small meal - for me lol!

Lunch: 2 Italian Linda M sausages (1)
2 boiled eggs
Wholemeal toast (HexB1)
Tomato sauce & mustard (1)

Tea: 2 veggie burgers (2) topped with cheese (half HexA1) and red jalapeños
Pasta N Sauce Mac & Cheese (kinda the rest of the HexA1 + 2)
Microwave veg bag: Carrots, broccoli, and cauliflower

Snack: Small bowl of raspberries and a Shape crumble yogurt (0.5)

Drinks: Coffee. Diet Coke. Squash.

Syns used: 6.5
Syns saved: 32

 

[Barbette]

Well done on getting some course work done, doing this will help you get your head back into doing your job.
Emotional rollercoasters can be very exhausting, getting off it will probably help you recoup a little.
I hope it wasn't too bad going to work today, I know you're only going for meds but it must be stressful x x

 

[B's lovely lady]

Hey B! I'm so annoyed by how much of a d*ck he ended up being! He's just really immature and needy and just needs to work on being a grown-up a bit more. I know I have issues, don't we all, but I can at least manage to be grown up and considerate and understanding. He came across as very caring and stuff, but really it seemed to be all about him. He needs constant reassurance and stuff and it's just draining! Maybe I could have coped with it better had I not been ill. Or maybe I'd have realised sooner and not let it get this far. I dunno.... No closer to a diagnosis I'm afraid. I came up with an idea to trial migraine medication, as a lot of my symptoms are similar to migraines. They help a bit and take away the fog and the fuzziness, which is at least some relief. Better than nothing! My gp's stumped though because he said they shouldn't work and it's another 'interesting' thing to add to the list. No news on my endocrine specialist appointment being moved, so looks like it's still the end of Nov. So frustrating! Hope you and baby B are doing ok.xx

I'm glad the medication is helping been though it has confused the gp!! When you have your endocrine appointment will they give you results back quickly or do you have no idea? I hope it's quick!! How are things with work?

Me and babyB are very well thank you! He is just gorgeous, but extremely exhausting!! I do not know what I did with my time before him!! X

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Well done on getting some course work done, doing this will help you get your head back into doing your job.
Emotional rollercoasters can be very exhausting, getting off it will probably help you recoup a little.
I hope it wasn't too bad going to work today, I know you're only going for meds but it must be stressful x x

I just need to work out how to do it all in my current state lol. And not overdo it too much.
My boss said I should know the course inside out by the time I go back. No pressure like! So what she really wants me to do is finish the lecture notes, read around what I need to, do any assignments I can do without being being in work, and prep the ones I do need to be in work for. So not much....
I have roughly a month till my Endo appointment and 5 weeks till my sick note runs out. Wonder how much I can do in that time?! Worth a try eh?!

It really was quite stressful going in to work. I'd gotten myself a bit worked up and felt so sick and was shaking by the time I got there. Eeejit!!
But my boss was pretty cheery and so were the few people I spoke to. My boss said it's probably best to go down the sensible route of trialling the meds and waiting to see what the endochrine Dr comes up with. My sicknote runs until the week after I see him and she pretty much said I should use it. I asked about other meetings with the head office lady but she said nothing's been said at the moment and they'll prob wait until they've at least seen my medical report.
Someone actually said I looked ill - huzzah! LOL And one of the receptionists, who was off for quite a few months herself, took me aside and asked if I was doing ok, esp money wise coz she knew how tough it was. No one has asked me that! Could have hugged her! It felt really caring for her to ask me that because I knew she'd been in this situation.

I really want to go back!!x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

I'm glad the medication is helping been though it has confused the gp!! When you have your endocrine appointment will they give you results back quickly or do you have no idea? I hope it's quick!! How are things with work?

Me and babyB are very well thank you! He is just gorgeous, but extremely exhausting!! I do not know what I did with my time before him!! X

Hey B
Honestly these meds shouldn't work. I'm not suffering from migraines, but have migraine like symptoms. So they really shouldn't be having any effect. But he's put them on my repeat prescription and said give them a go. They are vile tho lol! I have to let them dissolve on my tongue and they're gross
I'm not waiting on any results at the moment because the Dr's I have been seeing have run out of things to test me for. The last ones I had done (bizarre results!) were repeats of one's I'd already had. I hope once I get to the specialist that things will start moving, I really really do. I'm so sick of waiting around and feeling so ill all the time

Not much news over work really. I've ok'd them to access my medical report. But that's about it tbh.x