Caress
Silver Member
Bless me CDers for I have sinned, it's been far too long since I was here and since I last did anything positive about my weight.
I left CD in October for a hernia op, after losing 8st 3lb, I started at 27st 5lb and got to 19st 2lb. That's the good bit.
Since I came off CD I've gained considerably, I'm back up to 25st 12lb, I'm not proud of myself, I'm not happy with myself. I hate looking at my reflection in the mirror, cos I see that woman coming back, the woman I never wanted to be again.
The back aches have returned, the lethargy is back again, my house has gone to pot and all because I can't stop stuffing my face with everything I shouldn't eat.
It's going to take all my willpower, but I'm coming back, as from tomorrow when I go see Nicky, I'm back on CD, going to get it done this time and keep it off.
I left CD in October for a hernia op, after losing 8st 3lb, I started at 27st 5lb and got to 19st 2lb. That's the good bit.
Since I came off CD I've gained considerably, I'm back up to 25st 12lb, I'm not proud of myself, I'm not happy with myself. I hate looking at my reflection in the mirror, cos I see that woman coming back, the woman I never wanted to be again.
The back aches have returned, the lethargy is back again, my house has gone to pot and all because I can't stop stuffing my face with everything I shouldn't eat.
It's going to take all my willpower, but I'm coming back, as from tomorrow when I go see Nicky, I'm back on CD, going to get it done this time and keep it off.