Roch
Minimins gal x
As i sit here today i decided to start my own weight loss diary in the hope it will help me on the long journey i have ahead of me.
My journey started properly on the 3rd August 2006 when i joined slimming world and i weighed in at 27.9.
I have been overweight all my life but from the age of 8 i started gaining weight in very large ammounts,i beleive i started emotional eating on a large scale at that age.
At the age of 8 i lost my beautiful mum to breast cancer after she had been ill for 3 yrs.
My grandparents addopted me and my brother,my grandfather was a perfectionist and my weight was a big issue with him and so it carried on for all of my life.
Due to lots of reasons i have carried on getting bigger and bigger although i have been sucessfull on a couple of times losing weight i have still regained my weight.
My weight issues have controlled my life becuase i have allowed them to and now when i look back on my life i wish i had taken control much earlier,but the way i am looking at it now is "whats done is done and i cant change the past,but what i can do is change my future for the better".
I have had many health problems probably due to my obesity and i have tried on a few occasions to ss but never sucseeded and only once i got to day 17.
About a month ago i tried to restart cd again and got to the end of day 2 and ended up in casualty after passing out and my blood sugar level had dropped very low,my gp the next day told me he thought i was diabetic and sent me for various tests,last week the results come back and he said i am a very lucky woman as i am not diabetic but am border line diabetic and i need to keep a very close eye on my low blood sugar levels,but i seriously need to lose this weight ASAP b4 something very serious happens to me.
So i joined Slimming World 3 weeks ago and have stuck to it.
This morning i went to an earlier class as i usually get weighed in the evening and i got weighed this morning and i have lost another 3lbs this week which makes a total of 21.5lbs in 3 weeks,which i am very happy about.
Although my weight is coming off at a fast rate i know this will slow down soon.
I have decided to try CD one more time for the very last time,so as of tomorrow i am going to be SSing again.
This time i am ready to do the emotional work i need to do acknowledge the reasons why i emotionally eat and tackle any other problems i have,where as in the past i have shoved all my problems in a cupboard and locked them away and never acknowledged that they play a major part in my life and how my life has been put on hold due to the fact i have not dealt with this emotional baggage.
So for the first time i have decided to write down all my thoughts in the hope that this is going to help me in my journey and help me face my problems and fears so i can change my life once and for all.
I have a beautiful 14 yr old son Aaron who is my life and due to my weight problems and emotionall issues i have not been able to give him the life he deserves.
Aaron went to Kenya with his school for 2 weeks to do voluntary work and came home yesterday and these 2 weeks he has been away made me realise how much i love him and i want to be around for a long time and see his children grow up, and he deserves to have his mum around for many more years and that i have depended on him 2 much and how i need desperately to change my life.
I want to do all the things i should of done with him but could not becuase of my weight and emptional issues
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH I AM GOING TO TAKE COMPLETE CONTROL OF MY LIFE,I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THE NON EXISTANT LIFE I LEAD I DRAW A LINE UNDER MY OLD LIFE AS OF TODAY !!!
My journey started properly on the 3rd August 2006 when i joined slimming world and i weighed in at 27.9.
I have been overweight all my life but from the age of 8 i started gaining weight in very large ammounts,i beleive i started emotional eating on a large scale at that age.
At the age of 8 i lost my beautiful mum to breast cancer after she had been ill for 3 yrs.
My grandparents addopted me and my brother,my grandfather was a perfectionist and my weight was a big issue with him and so it carried on for all of my life.
Due to lots of reasons i have carried on getting bigger and bigger although i have been sucessfull on a couple of times losing weight i have still regained my weight.
My weight issues have controlled my life becuase i have allowed them to and now when i look back on my life i wish i had taken control much earlier,but the way i am looking at it now is "whats done is done and i cant change the past,but what i can do is change my future for the better".
I have had many health problems probably due to my obesity and i have tried on a few occasions to ss but never sucseeded and only once i got to day 17.
About a month ago i tried to restart cd again and got to the end of day 2 and ended up in casualty after passing out and my blood sugar level had dropped very low,my gp the next day told me he thought i was diabetic and sent me for various tests,last week the results come back and he said i am a very lucky woman as i am not diabetic but am border line diabetic and i need to keep a very close eye on my low blood sugar levels,but i seriously need to lose this weight ASAP b4 something very serious happens to me.
So i joined Slimming World 3 weeks ago and have stuck to it.
This morning i went to an earlier class as i usually get weighed in the evening and i got weighed this morning and i have lost another 3lbs this week which makes a total of 21.5lbs in 3 weeks,which i am very happy about.
Although my weight is coming off at a fast rate i know this will slow down soon.
I have decided to try CD one more time for the very last time,so as of tomorrow i am going to be SSing again.
This time i am ready to do the emotional work i need to do acknowledge the reasons why i emotionally eat and tackle any other problems i have,where as in the past i have shoved all my problems in a cupboard and locked them away and never acknowledged that they play a major part in my life and how my life has been put on hold due to the fact i have not dealt with this emotional baggage.
So for the first time i have decided to write down all my thoughts in the hope that this is going to help me in my journey and help me face my problems and fears so i can change my life once and for all.
I have a beautiful 14 yr old son Aaron who is my life and due to my weight problems and emotionall issues i have not been able to give him the life he deserves.
Aaron went to Kenya with his school for 2 weeks to do voluntary work and came home yesterday and these 2 weeks he has been away made me realise how much i love him and i want to be around for a long time and see his children grow up, and he deserves to have his mum around for many more years and that i have depended on him 2 much and how i need desperately to change my life.
I want to do all the things i should of done with him but could not becuase of my weight and emptional issues
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH I AM GOING TO TAKE COMPLETE CONTROL OF MY LIFE,I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THE NON EXISTANT LIFE I LEAD I DRAW A LINE UNDER MY OLD LIFE AS OF TODAY !!!
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