Dear Diary

I've fallen off the wagon big style again. Be prepared I am going to have a whinge. It's my husband's 50th on Monday., I text my stepson last week to remind him, I then phoned him yesterday to make sure he has sent a card and he said I'm gonna do it today.

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Anyway that was lunchtime on Saturday, even if he sent it by courier pigeon it wouldn't arrive by Monday. Now my husband tells me, without any consultation, that his stepson is hijacking our holiday in the Lake District, for the whole week! We are already going to Las Vegas for our other holiday to see his daughter and her family. I love my stepson dearly, but he is a typical 20 year old, and we are going to a remote cottage. My husbands ex army friends are already coming for the first weekend and I thought that my stepson was only coming for a couple of days and that with other people there it would be more entertaining for him with them swapping stories etc about their army days. A whole week with a cooped up 20 year old is going to be boring for all of us, him cause he likes to drink and party all the time and me because I will feel like the spare peg and my husband is not going to want to do anything but doss all day with him. I feel like not going and leaving them all to it.

I am so angry, because he has agreed this without even talking to me and I paid for the holiday. I gonna tell him that I'm going to invite my sister for the week, who he can't stand, so that I have some company. I really don't feel like going now, and this is being made worse as I feel mean complaining about my stepson who I haven't seen for ages. If it had been for three days then I would have loved it as we could have explored the area in the later part of the week when he had gone. Now they won't want to do any of that, previous experience of them being together is that they watch tv and play video games all day every day.

So I have fallen off big style which hasn't improved my mood, I have pmt and I am ready to have an argument, something I want to avoid as his birthday is tomorrow. I feel like crying. He just doesn't see how what he has done is selfish and I feel selfish for wanting something different. I do love my step children, but I want holidays without them. We gave up going to Australia this year to see my family, to visit his daughter for the second year in a row. I did this willingly as the first time he had seen her since she was a baby was last year, she had only recently moved to America from the Philippines. I know I married a man who already had children and I walked into this with my eyes open, but I'm still upset by this.

Anyway I am going back I plan Tuesday for 4 weeks till our holiday then when we get back its a massive attack till I go away in September when I want to be a size 12.

I could always say to my stepson, take my place to Las Vegas and go on my own to Australia.

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As i see this the stepson is not a child , but i have two sons almost 22 and 18 , they really dont think . and yes say do your games but go with a time plan on that , As you paid for the holiday he really should of said you are taking him away , that way the stepson knows its not your hubbys call to say he can come .
Wow your familes are dotted everywhere lol .
I think weekends also could be a problem for you on the diet maybe plan ahead what you can do for pasing time , as we eat out of being fed up .
Maybe say to hubby , i was thinking of asking my sister see what happens , if he says he dont want her there , then say as long as you tell your stepson the same , and smile lol
wow well done on your massive weight loss so far , thats alot !
What are your plans today ?
I'm off to my sisters as her hubby is back from brisbane , hes from oz ... so it will be hard with all the food shes doing ......
 
is this holiday to the lakes his birthday present ? Men never really do cards , i never get cards from my sons , and late presents .
not all men my i add , but most men .
Hows your eating going so far ?
i'm off out shortly , but hang in there tight !
 
As i see this the stepson is not a child , but i have two sons almost 22 and 18 , they really dont think . and yes say do your games but go with a time plan on that , As you paid for the holiday he really should of said you are taking him away , that way the stepson knows its not your hubbys call to say he can come .
Wow your familes are dotted everywhere lol .
I think weekends also could be a problem for you on the diet maybe plan ahead what you can do for pasing time , as we eat out of being fed up .
Maybe say to hubby , i was thinking of asking my sister see what happens , if he says he dont want her there , then say as long as you tell your stepson the same , and smile lol
wow well done on your massive weight loss so far , thats alot !
What are your plans today ?
I'm off to my sisters as her hubby is back from brisbane , hes from oz ... so it will be hard with all the food shes doing ......

Have a nice time, it looks from my rant that I don't want stepson to go. I do, but I would prefer if it was for a couple of days rather than the whole week. I do want to see him, just not for the whole eight days. I'm sure we will sort something out. I have just been to sales and bought £160 jacket for £48 in size 14, so I have to behave and get so e of the weight off. I am gonna use the products I have left t do JUDD as I am just not sticking to this and when I am going off the rails, I am completely gluttonous. I have lost a nice bit to start me off and I would be happy to be size 14 by September, size 18 at the moment, so I can afford to take the longer route. Thanks for your continued support and advice.

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yes you've done well ... yes JUDDD is good diet on down days what will you have ?
with step son think be good if it was planned that way but because it was not thats why your upset , i would be too .
maybe he might get flu and stay home lol
so how have you been since the weekend ?
i'm size 22 , need to pick his up too as no rides at Alton Towers for me and other things , oh off this week lots of walking he said .
they said today on news that 1 in 3 are leaving school fat .... gee .
 
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