Demaris
Silver Member
Well, I am 35 and live on the Yorkshire Moors with my partner and two wonderful children.
My start weight is 16 stone and 8lb. And I am a size 20-22.
Putting on so much weight has changed me alot. I was once a carefree hippy type girl that didn't worry about too much. Even large problem always had a rosy outsome for me. Over the last two years I have dealt with many things, the death of my Mum, my partner having a breakdown and also moving house 300 miles from my home in Cornwall. All of this took a toll and I ate for England! (and Scotland, ireland and Wales) In moving I also had to give up my client base (I'm a tattooist) and now care full time for my partner who was diagnosed with Bipolar.
I haven't managed to make any friends up here yet, as mostly i'm housebound for my partner.
Anyway, thats the background. I am desperate to take control of my life again, and sweep this defeatest attitude I have under the carpet once and for all.
If I don't do it who else will? Its down to me and my willpower, and finding this site is a godsend.
I ahve my first weigh in tomorrow (excited!!) and have got through the last week relatively easily.
There have been hairy moments, where for a split second I have wanted to wrap it in, and i'm sure there are many more to come. But I know if I fail this, I will beat myself up about it for years to come. I really want to be able to accomplish something and be proud for me.
Also my determination is helping my partner, I can't let his illness become mine, so i am doing this for me and me alone.
I don't want my kids to grow up thinking its ok to fat. I want them to be as healthy and as happy as possible.
Our dream is to live on a self sufficient farm and raise a few animals, I know right now I would never have the stamina to do that, so my bigger dream helps me make smaller ones possible.
Over and out
My start weight is 16 stone and 8lb. And I am a size 20-22.
Putting on so much weight has changed me alot. I was once a carefree hippy type girl that didn't worry about too much. Even large problem always had a rosy outsome for me. Over the last two years I have dealt with many things, the death of my Mum, my partner having a breakdown and also moving house 300 miles from my home in Cornwall. All of this took a toll and I ate for England! (and Scotland, ireland and Wales) In moving I also had to give up my client base (I'm a tattooist) and now care full time for my partner who was diagnosed with Bipolar.
I haven't managed to make any friends up here yet, as mostly i'm housebound for my partner.
Anyway, thats the background. I am desperate to take control of my life again, and sweep this defeatest attitude I have under the carpet once and for all.
If I don't do it who else will? Its down to me and my willpower, and finding this site is a godsend.
I ahve my first weigh in tomorrow (excited!!) and have got through the last week relatively easily.
There have been hairy moments, where for a split second I have wanted to wrap it in, and i'm sure there are many more to come. But I know if I fail this, I will beat myself up about it for years to come. I really want to be able to accomplish something and be proud for me.
Also my determination is helping my partner, I can't let his illness become mine, so i am doing this for me and me alone.
I don't want my kids to grow up thinking its ok to fat. I want them to be as healthy and as happy as possible.
Our dream is to live on a self sufficient farm and raise a few animals, I know right now I would never have the stamina to do that, so my bigger dream helps me make smaller ones possible.
Over and out