I have a lifelong history of depression, anxiety and insomnia!
Usually I can fight it off. I gave up sleeping meds years back. Today I was talking to my tutors and even they say I need to go back to my doc lol.
I made up my mind a few days ago to simply stop feeling down. Yeah I know how ridiculous that sounds but Mark Twain once said 'most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be' and there is a lot of truth in that.
I cannot go on endangering my degree studies (finals in April/early May) and my health any longer by isolating and giving in to the sad thoughts and doubts. I need to kick ass, now! My sons are grown and independent, they have their own lives, which is as it should be. I live alone and find it very challenging. Solitude does not suit me.
However I am in ketosis, I have a weight loss target to get me back to 10st 8lb and then maybe 7 to 10 pounds less than that, I have a study plan and I have friends here and elsewhere who understand and support me.
Yes I miss my dearest Dad terribly but that is perfectly normal. Getting my weight under control NOW, before it goes over that extra stone, is paramount. I used to weigh nearly 21 stones and life is so much better now, even when I feel down.
Thanks everyone. I love to support others here and I am grateful for the support of my Minimins pals xx