confused123
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Hi all
It is currently 5:45am and snowing outside. I am sat on my bed with my laptop as I am in tears due to severe anxiety and depression about my weight.
I am the biggest I have ever been at 96kg. (probably a little more in the morning as I have binged for a straight 4hrs)
I feel so down and don't feel good at all. weight has always been an issue for me and I have always been on the heavier side.
I am 15 stones, would love to be at 10 stones.
My problem is I always find an excuse to eat. Whenever i decide to start my cambridge packs i always talk myself out of it. I will do it for 2 days and binge for 5. but now enough is enough, I have never felt so ashamed while looking at myself.
I lost 3 stones on cambridge in 2015 and went down to 11stones and 7 pounds. that was the lightest i have ever been and now everyone that meets me are shocked that i put it all back on and i feel i am cornered and as if i have brought shame upon myself.
I am not comfortable in my own skin and for a 27yr old i have a saggy stomach and body issues. i am now suffering from body acne and the dr told me it is because of my weight.
This is the lowest I have ever been.
I need to stay motivated and do this and prove everyone wrong. And show the world I can do it and keep it off for the rest of my life.
I want to feel like me and feel good like i felt when i was 11.7stones.
I am so angry at myself that i went half way and let go.
I am so down. I wanted to note my feelings down because whenever I am about to lose track, i can come back to this post and remind myself of this feeling.
Plz support me xxx
It is currently 5:45am and snowing outside. I am sat on my bed with my laptop as I am in tears due to severe anxiety and depression about my weight.
I am the biggest I have ever been at 96kg. (probably a little more in the morning as I have binged for a straight 4hrs)
I feel so down and don't feel good at all. weight has always been an issue for me and I have always been on the heavier side.
I am 15 stones, would love to be at 10 stones.
My problem is I always find an excuse to eat. Whenever i decide to start my cambridge packs i always talk myself out of it. I will do it for 2 days and binge for 5. but now enough is enough, I have never felt so ashamed while looking at myself.
I lost 3 stones on cambridge in 2015 and went down to 11stones and 7 pounds. that was the lightest i have ever been and now everyone that meets me are shocked that i put it all back on and i feel i am cornered and as if i have brought shame upon myself.
I am not comfortable in my own skin and for a 27yr old i have a saggy stomach and body issues. i am now suffering from body acne and the dr told me it is because of my weight.
This is the lowest I have ever been.
I need to stay motivated and do this and prove everyone wrong. And show the world I can do it and keep it off for the rest of my life.
I want to feel like me and feel good like i felt when i was 11.7stones.
I am so angry at myself that i went half way and let go.
I am so down. I wanted to note my feelings down because whenever I am about to lose track, i can come back to this post and remind myself of this feeling.
Plz support me xxx