Determinator is Determined to get to goal :)

Saturday 5th March

OLA :D

had a good day today , had to go food shopping and got all my supplies in to start 1000 again on monday , going to give it a real go this time and not let myself loose control :D Tesco was packed but I prefer shopping without the kids pulling each others hair in the trolley , so weekends it is !!!

Have had an 810 day today , a bar for brekkie ( as the kids got me up at 6.15 am ... unusual for them as they normally sleep till 7.30 !) then shake for lunch and an omelette at tea time and got a choc tetra defrosting ready to eat in an hour or so :)

I am at work again tonight , although I really dont feel like going as they havent paid me AGAIN this month .. pay day should have been yesterday but again no money .. spoke to the new manager , the lady from the office that I need to speak to is on holiday till thursday and the owner is in india so no money till at least thurs ... then it will be a cheque .... so unauthorised overdraft here I come yet again .... very angry this time !!!!

will have a kip tomorrow morning then a nice relaxing day i think :)
 
Hi Katie -

How stressful is that (not being paid). That is ridculous.

As you are up so early, is it possible to do a Tescos shop before it gets busy? I noticed that before 9 on Saturdays, it is not too bad.

I am glad you are back on track -- and I recommend that you make yourself a ARC that reads, "I have done so well. I am already at a healthy bmi. And, I have proven I can do this, and I so I will!" or something like that. It is hard to give oneself credit.

MM
 
Sunday 6th March

thanks Mm .. I would have loved to go to tesco very early but hubby didnt drag himself out of his pit till 10 am so had to wait !!!

Had another good day today , slept for qa couple of hours this morning after work and then got up and had a shake . We went for a waqlk round the local stately home grounds then a pint of water in the local :D

I decided to go for 810 today as i am restarting 1000 tomorrow , so had the yummiest chicken salad for tea with lettuce celery and raw mushroom with balsamic vinegar .. YUM !!

Well I have done something really brave ( and maybe a bit stupid ) ..and signed up for race for life ( 5k) in may . I also ordered a pink tutu ( to be worn over leggings!) , pink gloves , pink leg warmers and pink bunny ears !!! I have never done anything remotely sporty and am glad i have a few months to get fitish at the gym before !!

I am also ( very sad ) very excited as I have ordered a new tumble dryer , a new hoover ( a hetty :D) and a new George Forman Grill for cooking all my yummy 1000 food :D I also had a fabulous day round the charity shops yesterday and got 2 gorgeous tops , a skirt , 2 jumpers and a brand new 'spring' jacket for under £20 :D

weigh in tomorrow , my scales are showing I have lost the 6lb i gained after weigh in last week , so hoping for a STS this week :)
 
A STS will be good news.

I love my Forman grill. We use it often -- and it cleans up well.

There are several ladies here that are doing the Moonwalk in May. Two of them were treadmilling it at the base gym this afternoon.

I wouldn't run for anything.. but I could walk the half marathon.

MM
 
A STS will be good news.

I love my Forman grill. We use it often -- and it cleans up well.

There are several ladies here that are doing the Moonwalk in May. Two of them were treadmilling it at the base gym this afternoon.

I wouldn't run for anything.. but I could walk the half marathon.

MM
I have one of the old origanal George Formans but it is 10 years old ( and very well used ) and not so non stick anymore so I have ordered a 6 portion one with removable plates and temp control :D

I doubt I will be running the race for life but hope to be able to jog for short periods :D
 
Get the c25k podcasts and start that! You will be suprised.. I know I was!
 
so I have ordered a 6 portion one with removable plates and temp control :D

:D


Sounds very posh! I like removable things like that -- I wish mine was. :sigh:

MM
 
Monday 7th march .. weigh in

well been to WI and lost 1lb :D very happy after the aweful 3 days I had :)

I picked up my George Forman .. its gorgeous , loads posher than my 10 yr old one ...... and being able to take the plates off is going to loads better as they were a nightmare to clean :D

started 1000 again today .. its going to be tough so hopefully beck will help me a lot ...

I missed brekkie , so added my breakfast alowances to my lunch so had a poached egg on granary toast ( mmmm not had toast in so long :D ) with a green salad and balsamic vinegar .. then a CD toffee bar after :) I hear the little voices whispering to me to look in the biccie tin .. but at the moment i am able to shout back at them ... I never seem to be hungry till after I have eaten a meal ...... very strange .... I am planning on mixing my allowance of chicken with mushrooms and brown pasta allowance for tea and stirring in a few laughing cow light triangle ( I dont use milk so will replace the calories of my milk with cheese :D ) then I have a peace of fruit and then a shake this evening .. looking forward to tea :D
 
well been to WI and lost 1lb :D very happy after the aweful 3 days I had :)

I picked up my George Forman .. its gorgeous , loads posher than my 10 yr old one ...... and being able to take the plates off is going to loads better as they were a nightmare to clean :D

started 1000 again today .. its going to be tough so hopefully beck will help me a lot ...

I missed brekkie , so added my breakfast alowances to my lunch so had a poached egg on granary toast ( mmmm not had toast in so long :D ) with a green salad and balsamic vinegar .. then a CD toffee bar after :) I hear the little voices whispering to me to look in the biccie tin .. but at the moment i am able to shout back at them ... I never seem to be hungry till after I have eaten a meal ...... very strange .... I am planning on mixing my allowance of chicken with mushrooms and brown pasta allowance for tea and stirring in a few laughing cow light triangle ( I dont use milk so will replace the calories of my milk with cheese :D ) then I have a peace of fruit and then a shake this evening .. looking forward to tea :D

Aw so proud of you hun - felt desperate for you mid last week when you had that 6lb gain to lose. I really empathise with you - I am a working mum and have 2 small children and struggle with bingeing - and love biscuits!

Your food intake sounds lovely and very sensible - loads of luck for your first proper week on 1000 - you can do it, we're all rooting for you! How much more do you want to lose to get to goal?

Xxx
 
Wow. 13lbs to go.. that's amazing!
So cuffed for you... can't wait till I get down there
 
Hi Katie --

Congrats on doing so well and getting things sorted. (I put the biscuits in the boot of the car!) Less than a stone from goal -- whooha. Beck will help you get there (we will, too).

The sun is shinning today -- I hope that you do not have to sleep though it. (And, your pay gets sorted asap.)

MM
 
Tues 8th March

Hey :D well another good day on the 1000 plan , even managed to have 2 pancakes within my allowances :D this also made me very happy as I ADORE pancakes and would normally have 12-15 on pancake day :eek: but I managed 2 small ones , made of wholemeal flour with skimmed milk :D yummy

well I went to the Dr this morning as I have had a realsiation .. I have an eating disorder :/ I realised after my binges last week ...... I ate nearly a whole box of choc shreddies in one go , after cake and biscuits .. that is so not normal .... I bought a big bag of goddies and hid in my bedroom and scoffed the lot ... i remember doing the same every day after school from the age of about 10 ...... I also remember trying to make myself sick after these binges but could never physically do it , so basically I was / am bulimic , but never manage to purge the food I binge on , so even worse :(

this was quite a hard realisation and has shocked me really deeply , I went to see my Dr ... and he just smiled and said .. 'well I can refer you to a dietician ... ermmmm not what i need .. I KNOW HOW to eat healthily ... I have serious issues and he was useless .. basically fobbed me off and told me to look at paying for some help of my choice if i thought it would help :mad:

so I am continuing with the beck book , which gives some great advise and strategies , and i am looking for a clinical hypnotherapist ...... its gonna cost around £50 an hour and they reckon about 5 sessions ... so not cheap .. but I need to sort this problem out as I am terrified that one of 2 things WILL happen .. I will either regain all the weight very quickly OR I will develop a full blown eating disorder , neither of which I can let happen :eek:

so a positive day in terms of diet , but a really hard day in terms of me :eek:
 
Hi Katie,

Recognising that you have a problem is so important. Now, that you have identified it -- you can figure out how to deal with it. Sounds like a lot, but not in the long run. It is a good investment.

MM
 
saturday 12th march

well I have missed a few days writing in my diary and feel that i need to make more effort to do it every day so here I am :)

I am on day 6 of 1000 and although I have had 2 days where I went a little over my calories ( am also tracking calories on my fitness pal to keep an eye on it ) I am very upset to see my scales show a 4-5 lb gain :cry:

I know I retain a lot of water when I start eating carbs again and was prepared for a small gain but this isnt small ...... I am gutted to be honest and having to really fight the urge to go back onto 810 . I have also started going to the gym this week , I went 3 times and need to keep it up as I am signed up for the race for life in may so need to get fit ... i just dont know what I am doing wrong and feel that my goal is getting more unobtainable :confused:

hey ho ... I am going to keep it up and give it another week as surely at 1000 kcals a day I cannot carry on gaining ????? so food for today -

Brekkie - 40g Jordans sugar free museli
fat free yoghurt (instead of milk)

Lunch - missed it as was at a kids party and all there was was sausage rolls , sandwiches and cake :/

Tea - 3 large flat mushrooms stuffed with -
half tuna and half cottage cheese allowance with paprika and baked ( mmmm)
150 g baked sweet potato (mmmmmmmmmmmmm)
1 apple

supper - ice cream tetra

I have weigh in on monday and prepared for the gain although not happy about it :(
 
hiya

just wrote in your other diary. i've given up my diary here although i prefer it here :( i think and felt that i had to commit to maintenance and go with it. needed to graduate as a way of moving forward. whether that's worked or not i just don't know as my weight is all over the place!
 
Hi Katie,

Fingers crossed that you are stabilised and will not show a gain.

MM
 
hun do you think maybe your body is telling you it doesn't want to go any lower ? I really struggled to keep to 11st 2 I had to really "work" and eat virtually no carbs to keep there - but now I am preggers and eating carbs for energy I have gained 6lb in 3 weeks up to 11st 7 which is where my body seems to like to be - obviously I will keep gaining cos of baby but I think if I wasn't pregnant this is where my body would be comfortable. Just a thought

Well done on recognising the eating disorder thing - I'm the same I don't binge as such but I pick stupidly - I could be eating every hour if I let myself.

much love xx
 
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