Devotchka's Diary (Beware, icky pictures!)

[devotchka]

Hi

I've started a diary before but was disheartened when nobody replied. But I've decided I'm doing this one for me if anything. I want to track my progress and feelings.

I started on the 17th February 2010. Stats:
Weight: 14st 3.5lbs
Height: 5"7
Chest: 45"
Waist: 37"
Hips: 43"

Here's what I looked like before:

This isn't that good, but I generally used to delete any pictures I looked fat in (didn't we all?)



And now, halfway through (I hope!), I took a few tummy pictures. Full length ones to follow.

6th May 2010:
Weight:12st 8.5lbs
Chest: 40.5"
Waist: 32.5"
Hips: 41"

I don't mind my shape. I'm quite lucky that I'm an hourglass, but my stretch marks really get me down . I've lost almost two stone, and they've gotten worse. Does anyone know why this is?

I've been feeling really rubbish about it lately. Feeling too tempted. I keep reaching my goals (for example 12st 7lbs) and then dancing above it after reaching it. It's so irritating! I think if I have a really good week this week, and a good loss, it will motivate me to keep going.

Goals:

> I want to reach my goal weight of 10st 7 by the 4th of September 2010. This is in time for my holiday. I would also like to lose a few extra pounds below that, so I can put some on on holiday and not feel bad!

 

[gemma_]

are you measuring yourself properly... you don't look the size in " as the pics at all!! your looking great! ... with stretch marks just due to you losing weigh, try apply bio oil to fade a little!

 

[devotchka]

Yeah, gemma, I measure myself with a soft tape measure in inches. Do I look too small or big for those measurements? If it's too small, I have wide hips and shoulders and big boobs so this is why they're so big. I seem to carry my weight on the sides. I always thought straight on I looked really wide, but didn't exactly look fat (like with flabby bits etc). Does that make sense? I think that's why I've only just realised i really really need to do something about it.

 

[gemma_]

you look perfect in those pictures to be honest ... im used to looking at me everyday and i have biggest hips ever.. but your hips look okay if they was straight down you'd look odd as you have the boobs! just try tone tummy up whilst you diet. i wouldnt worry much at all

 

[devotchka]

Awah, thanks Gemma.

I've had a really bad weekend
In fact, the past few weekends have been awful. I was shocked and grateful I only put on a pound last week. I've just had no motivation lately. Tempted by everything.

I really need a kick up the bum. Sigh.