I've been calorie counting for a while, and at the beginning i would have really bad binge sessions. Lately i've been getting much better, but today it happened again and it has made me realise that really i am not in control of this at all.
I cooked two chicken breasts tonight - one for dinner and one for a cold salad tomorrow, and i ended up eating them both though i was full. I also sometimes buy kit-kat packs for a treat once a day, which i always used to binge on so i stopped buying them and I was fine about not having them in the house. But because i was doing so well, i bought some today and i have eaten four. I know an extra chicken breast and four kit-kats is not the end of the world, but for me it's the emotional reaction to food which is worse than the calories. I was not hungry, I did not enjoy the extra food and I barely tasted it.
I just have no control, i should be able to leave a portion of cooked chicken alone but i can't. It's so disheartening.
What's the point in losing the weight if it just makes me irrational and obsessive?
It feels rubbish.
I cooked two chicken breasts tonight - one for dinner and one for a cold salad tomorrow, and i ended up eating them both though i was full. I also sometimes buy kit-kat packs for a treat once a day, which i always used to binge on so i stopped buying them and I was fine about not having them in the house. But because i was doing so well, i bought some today and i have eaten four. I know an extra chicken breast and four kit-kats is not the end of the world, but for me it's the emotional reaction to food which is worse than the calories. I was not hungry, I did not enjoy the extra food and I barely tasted it.
I just have no control, i should be able to leave a portion of cooked chicken alone but i can't. It's so disheartening.
What's the point in losing the weight if it just makes me irrational and obsessive?
It feels rubbish.