I know it's been a while since you posted this and I DO hope you know this is written with the best of intentions and that it's pure tough love and not nastiness but....
I've been reading the threads you are posting broxi, I understand how you feel, where you're coming from and what your history with diets is. You can change the vicious circle, CD is your chance to do so. As someone on another thread said, maybe you can do low cal or anything other to maintain once you're a goal but realistically, what you should doubt is not the diet or the method but your ability to make a decision and stick with it. It's commitment or your reluctance to put your heart and soul into this to the very end that stands between you and being thin not the diet. If only you'd make that decision, really really make that decision and then keep repeating the mantra of "I must get to goal and stay there this time, I will not question it, have doubts, wonder about changing gears, freak out about stalls or convince myself I'll die if I persevere. I will just do it this time." you'd be at goal in August or September!
I do not mean to be nasty with this, please believe me, I am just hoping that even if you get upset you'll consider it and give this commitment very serious thought. You'll need a hefty dose of it after goal too!
Good luck hon!