DollyBoo's Weight Loss Diary

[DollyBoo]

Imaginative title lol I don't have much of an imagination just now, I have just about scraped enough motivation together to start making some changes. This time last year I weighed 16 stone 1. I remember standing on the scales and crying, no idea how I managed to pile on a stone out of know where. I am now a year older and over 2 stone heavier. I have suffered with terrible Depression and Anxiety all stemming from a bad case of Post Natal Depression. It has ruined every aspect of my once happy life, but I am going to take it back. It won't win.

The depression and anxiety is now on the mend, not fully but a vast improvement on what It was. All that is left is for me to conquer my low self esteem, low self worth and this bloody weight! I think if I make changes to the weight the other two should fall into place ... wishful thinking?

I have decided I need a quick fix, a boost, So I have started a VLCD called Shake That Weight. I will be having 3 shakes a day and a small low carb meal, I really need this to work to get off a stone or two. The boost will help me get this head of mine into shape and the body can follow.

Wish me luck. I will probably update a few times a day if I struggle.

Starting weight 18 stone 3lb

 

[cheekychick81]

Good luck Dollyboo! I just did about 6 weeks on slim and save so know how hard it it!

 

[DollyBoo]

Well as of this morning I am still 18 stone 3. Not surprising really because after 1 day of VLCD I "cheated" and never got back on the wagon. Argh.
I am annoyed with myself but there is no point in dwelling on it, it won't change anything. The only thing that will change things is to keep going and pushing forward and stop seeing a bad event as a cheat, and just a blip... forget the cheats and keep going!!! New moto lol.

Anyway I am back on the wagon today, will do my best but no pressure on myself. To be honest this weight IS coming off, if that is quick, slow, stop start then so be it. But it is going. End of.

 

[DollyBoo]

Ok, plan of action. Today is Day 1. Drawing a line and getting my head right. I am going to update this diary like mad and look at inspiration constantly until i feel like I am in the zone. I have also started Heavy Lifting over the last fortnight and I love it so that will only spur me on more.

I am going to complete 5 weeks of VLCD, IF I have a blip (I hope I don't) but IF I do, I will carry on until the 5 weeks are up. No falling of the wagon in this 5 weeks. This will mean I will have lost at least a stone by 20th December. This will give me a few days to adjust to eating again before Christmas day, don't want a sore tummy then. I will probably then follow Slimming World until I weigh myself again on 2nd January. Then I will take it from there, don't want to plan too far ahead. Just taking it a chunk at a time.

 

[DollyBoo]

So after reading every VLCD mentioned on here and reading through some Diaries I have decided I will follow Slim and Save from now on, I still have 5 days worth of shakes from Shake That Weight, and will be buying my Slim and Save meals and bars etc tonight. How sad but I can't wait lol

 

[KBQueen]

If you buy 4 weeks worth you save a good bit of money. Also, you dont want that money to go to waste so will be more inclined to stick to it. Good luck x

 

[DollyBoo]

Thanks Jewel, I will be buying the 5 a day 28 days worth because that will take me to my 5 weeks on plan. Stopping just before christmas.

 

[DollyBoo]

Well I have been invited (Actually taken out) to the pictures tonight last minute. My Brother is taking me and my Mum out for a wee treat. My Mum has text me saying I should just start tomorrow and enjoy my night. I normally have a large drink, chocolate and a hot dog!! They sell Coke Zero so I will treat myself to a large coke zero and save a chocolate shake for when I come home to have hot. I am not caving in, what if i start again tomorrow and my motivation has gone? This is the first time I have felt so motivated I can't waste that.

 

[KBQueen]

If you feel motivated then I would take full advantage of it and stay on plan. Get a coke zero and maybe take a bar with you for choc fix? x

 

[DollyBoo]

I done good. I had my coke zero, came home had some water and a shake. The film was good and it was nice to get out but as usual there was a group of bloody idiots throwing popcorn and acting like complete fools. Kicking the back of my chair and when I asked them to stop i got called a fat ******* . Have shed a few tears, you think i would be used to it? In a way i should thank them because there is no way I am giving up now. I just want to be normal and blend in with everyone else. So tired of having victim tattooed on my forehead, sick of people thinking it is ok to treat me like garbage.

Anyway more positive now. Roll on day 2

 

[Clinquant]

A little post but a powerful one. I avoid any sort of confrontation in case that sort of insult is the reply. I know just what you mean about blending in. It just allows you to be yourself and concentrate on all the wonderful things that we are. It's much easier. Very well done on not caving. Now you know how good it feels to stick to your guns and your family will also have seen you are serious. Have a great day!

 

[DollyBoo]

A little post but a powerful one. I avoid any sort of confrontation in case that sort of insult is the reply. I know just what you mean about blending in. It just allows you to be yourself and concentrate on all the wonderful things that we are. It's much easier. Very well done on not caving. Now you know how good it feels to stick to your guns and your family will also have seen you are serious. Have a great day!

Thanks for replying, i'm glad im not the only one who wants to blend in. My Brother and Mum did say well done and said if I can manage the pictures with nothing but a coke zero than I can do this 5 weeks no problem.


I have woken up this morning feeling rather hungry so had a big glass of water and my shake earlier than i wanted but it has worked and I feel fine now.

I am a daily weigher, I don't get upset if they stay the same so no harm is really done by it for me, I would like to break the habit though but i'm not ready for that yet lol maybe in a week or so. Anyway, I have lost 3lbs over night and 6lbs in total. This time last week I was 18 stone 6lb and I managed to lose 3lbs with Myfitnesspal. I probably should update my stats and count that loss too as i worked hard for it lol. So for the first time in a long time I am 18 stone exactly and I am hoping that tomorrow I am back in the 17s woohoo.

 

[KBQueen]

That's awful what was said to you at the pics, I've been called a fat cow many times and my family actually say it to me too but they think it's something to laugh over as we're all fat! It still hurts though. I havent told them I'm losing weight as I wont be seeing any of them for several months so it will be a surprise. They wont be able to call me fat anymore by then I hope!
Well done on your willpower, you're doing so well. Bring on the 17's xx

 

[DollyBoo]

Yeah it's horrible how people think just because someone is overweight they are fair game to abuse! Sick of it. But wont be for long.

Just did my weights, I am doing heavy lifting and I love it. First thing that i have really enjoyed fitness wise. I am pushing myself so hard and event though I know I won't see results under all my fat I dont care, I am doing it to be strong.

Tonight I am starving, can't wait for my cheeky chicken breast later lol how sad?

 

[DollyBoo]

God I am posting alot lol. The Hubby is off to the take aways for his weekly fix, normally I would have something too. Then tons of chocolate, crisps, full fat soda .. the list is endless. But I am sitting here waiting on my chicken breast to cook, with a glass of water. I have saved a shake for later incase I feel really hungry before bed. I am pretty hungry today.

The real test will be when he comes home and I can smell kebab!! Ahhh. Anyway, head down and plod on. I have banned Saturday night TV this weekend because I really to associate things with food. Like the pictures with hotdogs, Sat night TV with a takeaway and chocolate. I'm glad I have realised this, but I hope it won't be like this forever. I need a life too lol. Will power being tested tonight.

 

[DollyBoo]

Well I made it. DAY 3

I woke up this morning feeling so bloated and fat. How is that even possible? My stomach looks pregnant.

Anyway I stepped on scales and another lb gone so now weigh 17 stone 13

Off to drink tons of water

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[DollyBoo]

Today has been the hardest day so far. I am so tired, moody and hungry. It is only 1pm and I have had 2 shakes and I could eat a horse. The kids are playing up, hubby complaining that I am not doing anything and I wish I could just go and sleep.

Roll on ketosis. Hopefully it will bring some energy with it.

 

[KBQueen]

Aw keep going, you're nearly in keto land. First few days are the worst xx

 

[Clinquant]

Third day the worst by far. Stick with it - you didn't resist hot dogs, kebabs and chocolate to cave now. In a couple of days you'll start to feel more human again. I definitely had to have a few early nights initially - it's tiring getting into ketosis.

 

[DollyBoo]

Thanks ladies. I have had a tin of tuna. It will put me over my cals by 100 but I can live with that x

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