emski
Gold Member
Hey its me... Im kinda back, but kinda not..
The thing is I came back, was on track and then fell off again big style.
I am currently weighing in at 13 st 4lbs which means I have put back on 11lbs but I am still a stone lighter than this time last year.
I have been to the docs this week and been diagnosed as being depressed.. one of the symptoms I have is compulsive eating... unfortunately I do not compulsively eat free food.. its crisps, chocolate etc. It has been very hard for me to admit to doing this as I feel shameful.. There is a logical side of me that says just stop doing it, but when its happening I cant. I am not at the stage of a whole family pack of crisps or whole loaves of white bread, but a i can get through 2 or 3 bags of crisps followed by biscuits and 1-2 chocolate bars. I start the day following plan and then its down hill from then.
I am going to the gym and go dancin once a week, so that is helping. And of course I stopped smoking.
Another thing is that I dont really know how to see myself... today for example I go to TK Max with a friend and I choose her some size 14 dresses to try on.. she persuades me to try them on to.. and they fit.. and i mean proper fit.. not squeeze yourself into fit. And yet I see myself as a big girl.. but a 14 is not big.. its normal..
My man tells me im ok.. its just my belly.. yes i have a wobbly one..
I have looked through some other websites and forums for others like myself and there is nowhere I feel more comfortable and supported than here with you guys.. so I am back but not in the right space to dish out the advice .. but can contribute with a little humour and congratulations.. also not on plan at all and will stay that way on docs advice.
Im not looking for advice as this is something I have to work on for myself.. I just need somewhere to spill and maybe get a little friendly hug
The thing is I came back, was on track and then fell off again big style.
I am currently weighing in at 13 st 4lbs which means I have put back on 11lbs but I am still a stone lighter than this time last year.
I have been to the docs this week and been diagnosed as being depressed.. one of the symptoms I have is compulsive eating... unfortunately I do not compulsively eat free food.. its crisps, chocolate etc. It has been very hard for me to admit to doing this as I feel shameful.. There is a logical side of me that says just stop doing it, but when its happening I cant. I am not at the stage of a whole family pack of crisps or whole loaves of white bread, but a i can get through 2 or 3 bags of crisps followed by biscuits and 1-2 chocolate bars. I start the day following plan and then its down hill from then.
I am going to the gym and go dancin once a week, so that is helping. And of course I stopped smoking.
Another thing is that I dont really know how to see myself... today for example I go to TK Max with a friend and I choose her some size 14 dresses to try on.. she persuades me to try them on to.. and they fit.. and i mean proper fit.. not squeeze yourself into fit. And yet I see myself as a big girl.. but a 14 is not big.. its normal..
My man tells me im ok.. its just my belly.. yes i have a wobbly one..
I have looked through some other websites and forums for others like myself and there is nowhere I feel more comfortable and supported than here with you guys.. so I am back but not in the right space to dish out the advice .. but can contribute with a little humour and congratulations.. also not on plan at all and will stay that way on docs advice.
Im not looking for advice as this is something I have to work on for myself.. I just need somewhere to spill and maybe get a little friendly hug