Hi
I have had a bit of a rough weekend food wise, I have stuck to plan and not cheated at all but I have been rather down about the hole thing. I went to a organics farm on Sat and the assistant was really helpfull and chatty and was showing us all the products. My mouth was watering and I couldnt try anything. Brought some stuff for the family and felt really cheated when we got home I skipped lunch and took the dogs out while they ate. I shouldnt of gone obvioulsy not ready for that yet.
Yesterday I was still down and really couldnt face another soup made a shake up for my tea and the lids didnt work properly and it went everywere, I chucked in the sink and stormed of with my glass of water to watch the telly. I only had one pack yesterday as I just couldnt face them.
I was really thinking about giving in. I asked my self if eating was more important than being thin. At the time I thought not. But I didnt give in I stuck to it.
Today I am feeling more positive again. I have slept on it and feel yes I do love my food but it is running/ruining my life. Yes I want to be thin and when I do that I can eat all the organic meat I want and hopefully by then I will be incontrol of my eating. I am doing so well it would be a shame to waste it because I know if I stop I will go on a allmighty binge and those 20 pounds will be back on in now time and then how will I feel.
Went to work and a friend, the only person I have told came in and she said she saw a huge difference on me. Iam looking so much better. I look like i have lost heeps of weight and my skin is looking so much healthier and has a nice glow about it. That cheared me up. I havnt told my two work collegues but I have said casually I have been on a diet. During the conversation I was telling them about the organics farm and mentioned I couldnt try anything because of my diet. One of them asked how much I had lost so I said and laughed no one had noticed. She said they had all noticed and it had been commented on but no one wanted to say anything to me as I obviously didnt want to talk about it.
I felt so much better after that. I really felt a huge weight had been taken of my shoulders.
I have come home and had a choclote shake but instead of having it cold I have made it with boiling water and added a tablet sweetner and it was lovely. I am now away to take the dogs for a nice long walk and hopefully work of some more pounds.
If anyone esle is feeling down dont give into it you will regret it.
Will some one please remind me of this when I am at rock bottom again
I have had a bit of a rough weekend food wise, I have stuck to plan and not cheated at all but I have been rather down about the hole thing. I went to a organics farm on Sat and the assistant was really helpfull and chatty and was showing us all the products. My mouth was watering and I couldnt try anything. Brought some stuff for the family and felt really cheated when we got home I skipped lunch and took the dogs out while they ate. I shouldnt of gone obvioulsy not ready for that yet.
Yesterday I was still down and really couldnt face another soup made a shake up for my tea and the lids didnt work properly and it went everywere, I chucked in the sink and stormed of with my glass of water to watch the telly. I only had one pack yesterday as I just couldnt face them.
I was really thinking about giving in. I asked my self if eating was more important than being thin. At the time I thought not. But I didnt give in I stuck to it.
Today I am feeling more positive again. I have slept on it and feel yes I do love my food but it is running/ruining my life. Yes I want to be thin and when I do that I can eat all the organic meat I want and hopefully by then I will be incontrol of my eating. I am doing so well it would be a shame to waste it because I know if I stop I will go on a allmighty binge and those 20 pounds will be back on in now time and then how will I feel.
Went to work and a friend, the only person I have told came in and she said she saw a huge difference on me. Iam looking so much better. I look like i have lost heeps of weight and my skin is looking so much healthier and has a nice glow about it. That cheared me up. I havnt told my two work collegues but I have said casually I have been on a diet. During the conversation I was telling them about the organics farm and mentioned I couldnt try anything because of my diet. One of them asked how much I had lost so I said and laughed no one had noticed. She said they had all noticed and it had been commented on but no one wanted to say anything to me as I obviously didnt want to talk about it.
I felt so much better after that. I really felt a huge weight had been taken of my shoulders.
I have come home and had a choclote shake but instead of having it cold I have made it with boiling water and added a tablet sweetner and it was lovely. I am now away to take the dogs for a nice long walk and hopefully work of some more pounds.
If anyone esle is feeling down dont give into it you will regret it.
Will some one please remind me of this when I am at rock bottom again