melarnz
Silver Member
I have gone from a size 28/30 to a size 16. As I write that I can see what an achievement that is.
However, I still feel really down about myself. I cant get a grip with my emotions, they are all over the place. I have no idea what to wear. I want to look pretty and funky, but have little money to spend on clothes as Im spending it all on LL. Also, I am hoping I wont be in them for long.
My last shopping trip ended up in a bingeing session as I couldnt find anything that looked nice. Im not confident enough to wear really fitting clothes, as I have a hang up about being able to see my 'roll' on my stomach.
I came off the diet for a few weeks to see if that helped. I was convinced eating was going to make me happy again. I followed it for 2 weeks, and I was just as miserable.
The thing is, Im really fed up at myself for not being able to do it. As soon as Im left on my own, my thoughts go to eating. I can hear myself go on and on and I should just be able to stop putting food in my mouth...HOW HARD IS THAT!! its pathetic.
I have tried to talking to people around me, but they either tell me to come of the diet, or just stick to it. I know that this is probably the only thing they can say.
I have tried to take a look at my life on the whole, and I can see I dont have a lot of time to myself, with the kids, work, hubby, house to look after and studying, but I cant see where I can fit it in. I also dont know what to do that I will enjoy that costs virtually nothing.
Sorry for going on, but I just needed to put my feelings somewhere, where someone else might be able to relate to.
Best go, Im supposed to be at work.
However, I still feel really down about myself. I cant get a grip with my emotions, they are all over the place. I have no idea what to wear. I want to look pretty and funky, but have little money to spend on clothes as Im spending it all on LL. Also, I am hoping I wont be in them for long.
My last shopping trip ended up in a bingeing session as I couldnt find anything that looked nice. Im not confident enough to wear really fitting clothes, as I have a hang up about being able to see my 'roll' on my stomach.
I came off the diet for a few weeks to see if that helped. I was convinced eating was going to make me happy again. I followed it for 2 weeks, and I was just as miserable.
The thing is, Im really fed up at myself for not being able to do it. As soon as Im left on my own, my thoughts go to eating. I can hear myself go on and on and I should just be able to stop putting food in my mouth...HOW HARD IS THAT!! its pathetic.
I have tried to talking to people around me, but they either tell me to come of the diet, or just stick to it. I know that this is probably the only thing they can say.
I have tried to take a look at my life on the whole, and I can see I dont have a lot of time to myself, with the kids, work, hubby, house to look after and studying, but I cant see where I can fit it in. I also dont know what to do that I will enjoy that costs virtually nothing.
Sorry for going on, but I just needed to put my feelings somewhere, where someone else might be able to relate to.
Best go, Im supposed to be at work.