I'm feeling so miserable tonight. Just came home from class, didn't bother staying, too embarrased. Put on this week - 3.5lbs. The most I have ever put on. I only rejoined SW 3 weeks ago. I originally left because I was going through a plateau and thought I was wasting my money and now I've rejoined only to fail again :cry:
I know what I did wrong and what I need to do next week, but there are so many obstacles to me losing weight.
My hubby is overweight and tbh I think he prefers me overweight as it makes him feel better about himself, but if I say this to him he gets really angry and says its not true but I think it is true. tonight for instance I have had NO sympathy. He's always buying me chocolate and ordering take aways, saying I need to 'live normally'.
Also, he works 2 jobs meaning we always eat at different times and it f*cks up my eating habits. I also have a 2 year old who is a terrible sleeper - sometimes wont fall asleep til 11pm - so when can I get the time to exercise? And I work full time too at a desk all day with fast food shops all around me...lots of temptation :sigh: I can't get a babysitter to look after the wee one so I can exercise - she doesn't trust strangers, my in laws are awful can't trust them, and my mum is a carer so too busy too.
I know if I give up then even more weight will pile on but I can't afford to go to class every week just to gain or maintain. I need to lose every week. I've tried so many diets over the years and I'm just fed up now :cry:
I'm going on holiday in June and I really wanted to be a size 12 by then.
Also at class was this girl I went to school with. She has lost a lot of weight and looks like a supermodel now. But she used to bully me at school. In other words, class totally destroyed my self esteem tonight. Consultant was too busy, as always, with new member talk.
Sorry for the moan. I just needed to have a wee cry somewhere :cry::break_diet:
I know what I did wrong and what I need to do next week, but there are so many obstacles to me losing weight.
My hubby is overweight and tbh I think he prefers me overweight as it makes him feel better about himself, but if I say this to him he gets really angry and says its not true but I think it is true. tonight for instance I have had NO sympathy. He's always buying me chocolate and ordering take aways, saying I need to 'live normally'.
Also, he works 2 jobs meaning we always eat at different times and it f*cks up my eating habits. I also have a 2 year old who is a terrible sleeper - sometimes wont fall asleep til 11pm - so when can I get the time to exercise? And I work full time too at a desk all day with fast food shops all around me...lots of temptation :sigh: I can't get a babysitter to look after the wee one so I can exercise - she doesn't trust strangers, my in laws are awful can't trust them, and my mum is a carer so too busy too.
I know if I give up then even more weight will pile on but I can't afford to go to class every week just to gain or maintain. I need to lose every week. I've tried so many diets over the years and I'm just fed up now :cry:
I'm going on holiday in June and I really wanted to be a size 12 by then.
Also at class was this girl I went to school with. She has lost a lot of weight and looks like a supermodel now. But she used to bully me at school. In other words, class totally destroyed my self esteem tonight. Consultant was too busy, as always, with new member talk.
Sorry for the moan. I just needed to have a wee cry somewhere :cry::break_diet: