Julesy
Likes being a girly girl
OK, so I've fallen off the wagon big style.....won't go into what I've done too much, but needless to say I caved in last night and have written off today aswell....not too drastic and certainly nowhere near like what I was eating before but still.......strangely I was still in ketosis this morning....odd...but I'm definately not now....
This diet is just so bloody hard isn't it.....I'm a single mum with 3 children so all the cooking, shopping etc has to be done by me.....
I've been getting to the point where I couldn't face cooking for my children as it was just bloody hard, and my children were all asking when I could sit down with them like I always did on an evening and have a meal with them.....I had started having to run upstairs and hide in the bath etc when I had dished up their teas.....missing out on our usual evening chat around the table.....(am filled up with tears writing this)
Anyways, my daughter is 15 next month and wants to lose about 2 stone, and she had started to get silly about her food which I think has alot to do with seeing me living on soups and shakes and water all day.....
My middle son is 11 and has ADHD/ODD and dealing with his behaviour and with all the stuff that the school has been throwing at me have left me a wreck to be honest.
I'm a terribly good actress and have pretended for the past weeks that all is well and I'm happy, but I'm really really not.....
I genuinally don't know what to do.......have considered going to SW and taking my daughter with me....have considered giving this diet another go and just seeing what happens....have considered trying this diet for a short while and then switching to SW after I have given my self a head start.....oh I don't know......
I read about everyone else sticking to this diet 100% and managing quite easily to lose substantial amounts of weight and I so wanted to be just like that......I had a 100% determined head on me when I started and now I'm just all messed up and confused and feel like such a stupid failiure.....all my goals I had set myself have flown out of the window now and I feel as if I've let myself and my family down so much.
Once a failiure always a failure is how I feel about myself right now......
Sorry for all the negativity, I just needed to write down my thoughts and feelings.....
This diet is just so bloody hard isn't it.....I'm a single mum with 3 children so all the cooking, shopping etc has to be done by me.....
I've been getting to the point where I couldn't face cooking for my children as it was just bloody hard, and my children were all asking when I could sit down with them like I always did on an evening and have a meal with them.....I had started having to run upstairs and hide in the bath etc when I had dished up their teas.....missing out on our usual evening chat around the table.....(am filled up with tears writing this)
Anyways, my daughter is 15 next month and wants to lose about 2 stone, and she had started to get silly about her food which I think has alot to do with seeing me living on soups and shakes and water all day.....
My middle son is 11 and has ADHD/ODD and dealing with his behaviour and with all the stuff that the school has been throwing at me have left me a wreck to be honest.
I'm a terribly good actress and have pretended for the past weeks that all is well and I'm happy, but I'm really really not.....
I genuinally don't know what to do.......have considered going to SW and taking my daughter with me....have considered giving this diet another go and just seeing what happens....have considered trying this diet for a short while and then switching to SW after I have given my self a head start.....oh I don't know......
I read about everyone else sticking to this diet 100% and managing quite easily to lose substantial amounts of weight and I so wanted to be just like that......I had a 100% determined head on me when I started and now I'm just all messed up and confused and feel like such a stupid failiure.....all my goals I had set myself have flown out of the window now and I feel as if I've let myself and my family down so much.
Once a failiure always a failure is how I feel about myself right now......
Sorry for all the negativity, I just needed to write down my thoughts and feelings.....