Lily
Gold Member
What a difference a day makes, eh? Yesterday I had a really great day--thanks to all of those who posted on my birthday thread. It was great to see all your comments.
Today, well, I knew it might have happened, but still, knowing for sure that I failed the exam I took a couple of weeks ago hurts like hell.
I'm sitting here, not quite knowing what to do with myself. I feel so disappointed with myself-and like I've let everyone else down. But the worst thing is that I texted my best friend, my Dad and my sister to tell them I failed and haven't heard back from any of them. Not one solitary word. Bad enough that I failed, it feels even worse that no one cares. I worked so bloody hard--and for what?
And I have to confess, I don't quite know what to do with myself. Ordinarily, I'd stuff my face with pizza, or get drunk--and I don't want to do either of those things--because that'll only make things worse. I'm sitting here in danger of electrocuting myself because I'm crying all over the keyboard--and I don't know how to stop.
I can retake the exam, but really can't face the thought of doing it all again right now. I just want to put up my white flag and surrender.
Sorry for the depressing post--I just had to spew it all out somewhere...
Today, well, I knew it might have happened, but still, knowing for sure that I failed the exam I took a couple of weeks ago hurts like hell.
I'm sitting here, not quite knowing what to do with myself. I feel so disappointed with myself-and like I've let everyone else down. But the worst thing is that I texted my best friend, my Dad and my sister to tell them I failed and haven't heard back from any of them. Not one solitary word. Bad enough that I failed, it feels even worse that no one cares. I worked so bloody hard--and for what?
And I have to confess, I don't quite know what to do with myself. Ordinarily, I'd stuff my face with pizza, or get drunk--and I don't want to do either of those things--because that'll only make things worse. I'm sitting here in danger of electrocuting myself because I'm crying all over the keyboard--and I don't know how to stop.
I can retake the exam, but really can't face the thought of doing it all again right now. I just want to put up my white flag and surrender.
Sorry for the depressing post--I just had to spew it all out somewhere...