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I didn't know what to call this thread... dispair; desperation; hopelessness... really, i can't think of the words to describe how i'm feeling, and what i'm putting myself through.
I have been totally cr*p on this plan. I have really good intentions but i can't seem to stick at it - at all. I know we've had Easter and a wonderful long weekend - but I think these are just excuses for me to go mad... Well i don't mean to go mad - it just happens.
I've known for a long time i can't be trusted around food. I'm seriously thinking of maybe going to my GP to see what he can suggest because I can't go on like this. I try really hard and then I go and sabortage myself. I'm really finding it difficult.
I'm so glad there's minimins so that I can come on here and say these things. I think i'm going mad and i feel totally out of control.
I'm embarrased to go and weigh tomorrow because I know i've put on. But if i don't go I know that will be it. I will just eat and eat and eat, and I will be in a worse place. Again.
I think i'm better doing something like the Cambridge diet, where I know that food is taken completely out of the equation. But i can't afford to do that at the moment AND i know it's not a long term solution. I do have to eat. Eventually.
I've always known i have a problem around food, but now its dictacting my life - the way I feel and act and it's getting me down.
Really sorry for the moan. I've just had it.
Lx
I have been totally cr*p on this plan. I have really good intentions but i can't seem to stick at it - at all. I know we've had Easter and a wonderful long weekend - but I think these are just excuses for me to go mad... Well i don't mean to go mad - it just happens.
I've known for a long time i can't be trusted around food. I'm seriously thinking of maybe going to my GP to see what he can suggest because I can't go on like this. I try really hard and then I go and sabortage myself. I'm really finding it difficult.
I'm so glad there's minimins so that I can come on here and say these things. I think i'm going mad and i feel totally out of control.
I'm embarrased to go and weigh tomorrow because I know i've put on. But if i don't go I know that will be it. I will just eat and eat and eat, and I will be in a worse place. Again.
I think i'm better doing something like the Cambridge diet, where I know that food is taken completely out of the equation. But i can't afford to do that at the moment AND i know it's not a long term solution. I do have to eat. Eventually.
I've always known i have a problem around food, but now its dictacting my life - the way I feel and act and it's getting me down.
Really sorry for the moan. I've just had it.
Lx