Hi Anja,
It wasn't what they said more the way they acted. I knew they would all be coming to the evening do...they weren't invited to the day only a select few were. Anyway, all arived minus the one who hates me...and I mean hate! All spoke to me caught up as hadn't seen each other for a while. Nice civil conversation. Then this other one walked in....I was shocked as shes just hada baby and I assumed she wouldn't be there. Well OMG it went from everyone chatting me included to everyone chatting and me excluded! within seconds she walked in they turned and ignored me for the rest of the evening! As I had gone with another mate I felt I should wait to take her home, I drove (I can picture Diva reading this fuming at me being a mug)! I should have just gone home but I didn't want them to see I was upset so put up with bitchy comments! Not really knowing anyone else I spent a few hours just sitting on my own....I know Kamilla life and soul at Birmingham! But I felt so at ease there yet like a fish out of water at the Wedding. I should have left after the main reception I wish I had but the bride is a very good mate and I really wanted to be there for her. So thats it really....feel totally crap, weepy and low today, I really feel that I must be some awful person for people to be so horrid and I keep going over in my mind why this one person and I don't talk and it seems so petty. I was very low, she was as well everyone knew why she was I kept my problems to myself she took offence and told me to snap out of it and that was 2 years ago and dispite a huge effort on my side wrote to her and called a few times as recommended by my cousellor at the time, that made her angry and we still don't talk. I don't know why I am still so upset about it maybe because I thought we were friends. But it really upsets me that the others will talk to me when shes not there but not when she is.
Well you did ask! Got that off my chest wish I could get it out of my mind too.
Kamilla xx
