My food diary begins. I started my diet in 1990 and have been on it ever since, gaining and losing hundreds of pounds. When I reached my highest weight of 13 stones [182 lbs] about 4 years ago I decided I really must do something. I lost a stone fairly quickly and kept that off more or less, but didn't lose any more for a long time. Then I lost another stone but kept yoyoing it back on and off for a couple of years. Last year I began to have problems with my legs and feet and decided it was down to being too heavy, so I lost some more weight and the problem went away never yet to return. I was doing extremely well for the last 12 months, going to the gym and joining Slimming World and my current weight is 9 stone 7 [133 lbs]. However, 3 weeks ago I had my Birthday and decided to eat whatever I wanted on that day and not think about dieting and that was a disaster. Ever since then I seem to have been on one unstoppable binge, getting up every morning and promising to get back on plan today, but I seem to have had less control every day. I have put on 8 lbs all together in the last 3 weeks and although I did go to SW to get weighed in a week ago, I was so upset that I had to flee the class quickly before I cried and couldn't face going back this week, which is a very rocky road. I find the SW plan quite hard to follow mostly because I have no idea of portion sizes and find the idea of having free foods such as SW chips, Linda Mac sausages and beans means that I can actually put on weight even with sticking to the plan. When it says eat as much as you like of these foods, I don't think the designers thought that anyone can eat the volume of food that I can manage. Also, I'm very lazy at looking up syn values and have a habit of just guessing sometimes, which can often lead to eating too many as I never over estimate them. However, I find that going to the class every week and being weighed invaluable and it really helps me keep on track knowing I will have to face the group each week. Sadly I'm at the stage where if I don't lose this week, I can see myself never going back and that would probably be a disaster. That's why I've decided to keep a food diary. I became a vegan for ethical reasons in 1992, so my food is always animal free, but it isn't always healthy as I adore cakes and biscuits and don't want to exclude these from my diet. I hope that starting this diary will help me get back on track today. I intend to get my books out this afternoon and go back to basics.