Awww Linda - You are clearly not in a good place at the moment! I've been where you are and I go through phases of eating in secret, stuffing an unbelievable amount of junk into me on a daily basis (I can easily eat 2 tubes of Pringles in a sitting and then have a pt of ice-cream etc). It's such a horrible situation to get out of especially as most days I used to start the day convinced to be healthy and by mid afternoon it would all unravel and I'd spend the evening eating. I'd go to bed uncomfortable and despairing and then the next day I'd get up convinced that today would be the day that things would change and by mid afternoon etc etc...
I think it's such a hard cycle to break but you WILL eventually break it. Maybe you are not ready yet but sooner or later you will be ready and then you'll get going again. I wish I could find the inspiration and motivation for you but only you can do that and it's so so hard.
I am trying to reduce the amount of sugar / carbs that I eat mainly because my migraines have returned and I've had 2 episodes in 3 weeks but also as I am sure I'm addicted to sugar. I don't have an issue with wheat, rice, pasta etc but the sugar in cakes, sweets and crisps definitely sets off my cravings so I'm hoping by cutting right down it will help me in multiple ways. In order to do that I've stopped dieting as such as I can't calorie count and watch sugar/carbs - it would be too much for me so for nowI'm eating for health. Maybe you could see if you could make the decision to not have sugar in its purest form for a few days but eat whatever you wanted other than that. That way you'd get a break from cakes, chocolate, sweets, alcohol etc but you would still be able to eat lots. I think if you committed to do this for just 2-3 days you would find your bingeing reduce enough for you to be able to take a step back and regain some perspective.
Sorry for the long post - feel free to ignore me if you like and you may not be able to relate to anything in my post
but I just wanted to remind you that many of us have been through phases like yours and found the strength to get back on a more productive and easier path (a bumpy path but a path nonetheless ).
Big hugs! Please stay in touch - no one is here to judge you - many of us muddle through a few good days and a few bad ones and don't get very far at all but it is a life long journey so there's no rush as long as we keep trying. I've set up camp in the gold member diary section - it's a bit more private - feel free to join us if you like. It might help.
I think it's such a hard cycle to break but you WILL eventually break it. Maybe you are not ready yet but sooner or later you will be ready and then you'll get going again. I wish I could find the inspiration and motivation for you but only you can do that and it's so so hard.
I am trying to reduce the amount of sugar / carbs that I eat mainly because my migraines have returned and I've had 2 episodes in 3 weeks but also as I am sure I'm addicted to sugar. I don't have an issue with wheat, rice, pasta etc but the sugar in cakes, sweets and crisps definitely sets off my cravings so I'm hoping by cutting right down it will help me in multiple ways. In order to do that I've stopped dieting as such as I can't calorie count and watch sugar/carbs - it would be too much for me so for nowI'm eating for health. Maybe you could see if you could make the decision to not have sugar in its purest form for a few days but eat whatever you wanted other than that. That way you'd get a break from cakes, chocolate, sweets, alcohol etc but you would still be able to eat lots. I think if you committed to do this for just 2-3 days you would find your bingeing reduce enough for you to be able to take a step back and regain some perspective.
Sorry for the long post - feel free to ignore me if you like and you may not be able to relate to anything in my post
but I just wanted to remind you that many of us have been through phases like yours and found the strength to get back on a more productive and easier path (a bumpy path but a path nonetheless ).Big hugs! Please stay in touch - no one is here to judge you - many of us muddle through a few good days and a few bad ones and don't get very far at all but it is a life long journey so there's no rush as long as we keep trying. I've set up camp in the gold member diary section - it's a bit more private - feel free to join us if you like. It might help.
