Keeliewheeliebin
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Do you ever grieve for certain situations or times past?
Since i left Uni 2 years ago ive had times when i just feel so so sad, like im grieving for my old life at uni. Even though at the time i was poor beyond belief and totally exhausted.
I think about where i used to live, my halls of residence, my lecturers, times i spent in the SU bar, my freinds ( who i hardly ever see) even sitting up till stupid hours of the morning trying to finish an essay in time ( something i used to hate!).
i think about the City i lived in, the hairdressers i went to (!) the streets i walked down, the chip shop i worked in ( i HATED that job!),.....just the good times...well, and the bad!
im sat here with tears in my eyes, really trying to stop myself from crying. i think that im just lonely. Ive only really had a few good freinds in my life, and they are all in different parts of the country. Its so sad, even on my hen night i had my mother in law, my mum, my husbands freind and my brother in law's girlfreind with me........not 1 freind of my own. All of my 'freinds' now are DH's relatives and his freinds.
I just want my own identity back
The only people who ever understood me have all gone their own ways.
ok , thats it, my eyes are full of tears and im starting to sniff...colleagues are looking at me funny.....
im sorry for waffling, but i think it has helped me writing this down.
Since i left Uni 2 years ago ive had times when i just feel so so sad, like im grieving for my old life at uni. Even though at the time i was poor beyond belief and totally exhausted.
I think about where i used to live, my halls of residence, my lecturers, times i spent in the SU bar, my freinds ( who i hardly ever see) even sitting up till stupid hours of the morning trying to finish an essay in time ( something i used to hate!).
i think about the City i lived in, the hairdressers i went to (!) the streets i walked down, the chip shop i worked in ( i HATED that job!),.....just the good times...well, and the bad!
im sat here with tears in my eyes, really trying to stop myself from crying. i think that im just lonely. Ive only really had a few good freinds in my life, and they are all in different parts of the country. Its so sad, even on my hen night i had my mother in law, my mum, my husbands freind and my brother in law's girlfreind with me........not 1 freind of my own. All of my 'freinds' now are DH's relatives and his freinds.
I just want my own identity back
The only people who ever understood me have all gone their own ways.
ok , thats it, my eyes are full of tears and im starting to sniff...colleagues are looking at me funny.....
im sorry for waffling, but i think it has helped me writing this down.
