As far as the diet is going things are going well, I am really proud of the fact I have lost almost a stone and a half and was beginning to feel good again, so much so we were going to the cinema tonight, our first night out in almost a year. I ordered myself a top and some trousers from Next, had a shower did my hair and makeup, tried the outfit on
I looked like the back end of a bus, the trousers, size 14, I could only just get on, I was a size 14 still when I was a stone and a half heavier and I am gutted that I seem to have lost all this weight but I have no idea where it's gone as it certainly isn't going from my fat backside.
So, completely deflated, I am fed up now of still having to wear the same pair of jeans (that aren't any looser than they were when I started), I exercise like mad (I run 30 miles a week), so much for toning you up!
I got changed, have parcelled the outfit up to go back scrubbed all my make up off and refused to go out. I don't feel good about myself anymore, I hate the way I look and I just feel like I am the only person in the world who is never going to get to where I want to be.
Why can't I just learn to accept myself and feel happy about the way I look?
I looked like the back end of a bus, the trousers, size 14, I could only just get on, I was a size 14 still when I was a stone and a half heavier and I am gutted that I seem to have lost all this weight but I have no idea where it's gone as it certainly isn't going from my fat backside.
So, completely deflated, I am fed up now of still having to wear the same pair of jeans (that aren't any looser than they were when I started), I exercise like mad (I run 30 miles a week), so much for toning you up!
I got changed, have parcelled the outfit up to go back scrubbed all my make up off and refused to go out. I don't feel good about myself anymore, I hate the way I look and I just feel like I am the only person in the world who is never going to get to where I want to be.
Why can't I just learn to accept myself and feel happy about the way I look?