Hi,
I feel hopeless, in need of help. I know a lot about nutrition, all the good things I should be doing. I have successfully counted calories in the past and lost 11 kg. I used to exercise a lot and loved it.
Then I had back surgery (herniated disc) years ago and since then I haven't found my fitness again.
I sit a lot. I work, but have lots of free time, which I fulfill with music (I study three instruments) and writing (my second unpublished-to-be novel) and watching TV.
Problem is: I'm addicted to chocolates. I can have 1000 cals a day only in chocs.
I'm not buying them anymore for the house, but when I go to work I buy a bar or two (or three:cry.
My current BMI is 24.56, so, I'm "normal", but my weight's going up, so, soon I'll be obese.
I'm ashamed of myself, because I'm letting it happen. I have no excuse whatsoever. I have an elliptical trainer in front of my TV: why am I not using it?
I have a dancing room at home (do classical ballet). Why am I not dancing?
I used to be so motivated... what happened to me?
I came to this forum, because I need help. I'm sorry if I sound spoiled to some of you who's been fighting to lose lots of stones. I admire you and want to support you too, if I possibly can.
I don't need to be skinny to be happy. I only would like to keep my BMI under 24, so that I'm not close to danger.
I'm really ashamed of myself. When am I gonna do something about it all? When my BMI's above 25? 30? 40?
Apart from the fear of losing control and the shame of not doing anything to deal with it, I'm kind of OK. I love my job and my music. I'm relatively happily married. The problem is: I'm VERY lonely. Very lonely. I live in my own world. I don't drink alcohol and don't like shopping, and I've given up on former friendships because all they talked about was clothes, buying things, make up, booze... I'm not into these things. I'd drive them to the shops and find a place to sit and wait while they shopped. Or I'd go to a pub with them and sit there watching them getting drunk. Or go to their places and watch their kids doing mischief, breaking things, hurting each other, their mums screaming at them for no good at all. I'd listen to their problems and try to help, but they'd never listen to mine, always assuming I was perfect, happy, etc (even when I'd ask for help, when I had clinical depression, back surgery, etc). My best friend left the country. I miss her.
I have no family nearby (they're 10000 km away).
All the very best to all of you. I hope you're much more motivated than I am and that you all do much better than I.
I feel hopeless, in need of help. I know a lot about nutrition, all the good things I should be doing. I have successfully counted calories in the past and lost 11 kg. I used to exercise a lot and loved it.
Then I had back surgery (herniated disc) years ago and since then I haven't found my fitness again.
I sit a lot. I work, but have lots of free time, which I fulfill with music (I study three instruments) and writing (my second unpublished-to-be novel) and watching TV.
Problem is: I'm addicted to chocolates. I can have 1000 cals a day only in chocs.
I'm not buying them anymore for the house, but when I go to work I buy a bar or two (or three:cry.
My current BMI is 24.56, so, I'm "normal", but my weight's going up, so, soon I'll be obese.
I'm ashamed of myself, because I'm letting it happen. I have no excuse whatsoever. I have an elliptical trainer in front of my TV: why am I not using it?
I have a dancing room at home (do classical ballet). Why am I not dancing?
I used to be so motivated... what happened to me?
I came to this forum, because I need help. I'm sorry if I sound spoiled to some of you who's been fighting to lose lots of stones. I admire you and want to support you too, if I possibly can.
I don't need to be skinny to be happy. I only would like to keep my BMI under 24, so that I'm not close to danger.
I'm really ashamed of myself. When am I gonna do something about it all? When my BMI's above 25? 30? 40?
Apart from the fear of losing control and the shame of not doing anything to deal with it, I'm kind of OK. I love my job and my music. I'm relatively happily married. The problem is: I'm VERY lonely. Very lonely. I live in my own world. I don't drink alcohol and don't like shopping, and I've given up on former friendships because all they talked about was clothes, buying things, make up, booze... I'm not into these things. I'd drive them to the shops and find a place to sit and wait while they shopped. Or I'd go to a pub with them and sit there watching them getting drunk. Or go to their places and watch their kids doing mischief, breaking things, hurting each other, their mums screaming at them for no good at all. I'd listen to their problems and try to help, but they'd never listen to mine, always assuming I was perfect, happy, etc (even when I'd ask for help, when I had clinical depression, back surgery, etc). My best friend left the country. I miss her.
I have no family nearby (they're 10000 km away).
All the very best to all of you. I hope you're much more motivated than I am and that you all do much better than I.