Hello,
I've was pointed in the direction of this forum when i first started on LL, had a little gander but didn't join. But now i'm really struggling and i've decided maybe its time i got a little bit of support before i give in, so here i am!
I've been on LL for 3 weeks now, i start week 4 tomorrow and i'm not really finding any improvement in coping with it all. My mum has recently just finished her initial 3 months and she looks fantastic, but i don't seem to have the same sense of willpower as her.
I've sort of reached breaking point with this, and i'm finding it very difficult to stick to the food packs when i'm with other people. Being home alone and at work is easy, i can quite happily cook for the household and not have the slightest temptation to pick. The problems are just when other people are eating around me.
I feel i have a particularly unhealthy relationship with food, i go through stages where i just don't care what i eat because i'm already fat and others where a small comment about what i'm eating will through me off so much that i physically can't force myself to eat in front of people in fear that people will think i deserve to be fat because of what i eat. The food packs are falling into the last category. I cannot bring myself to have a food pack whilst i'm out and about, i won't even take the packs with me because i'm terrified of what people will think - i'm aware that it shouldn't matter but it really does, i spent 18 months refusing to leave my home for anything other than family visits and work because i got so stressed out when leaving, i'm better at it now, but i still struggle to do a lot of things outside the house by myself. At home during meal times, i just feel deprived, the two lads i live with can eat what they like and not gain an ounce.
My feelings during these times are allowing me to justify to myself why its ok to skip a pack here or there and replace it with something like cooked, unprocessed meat. At the same time, its not really helping me lose weight. I know it isn't but it doesn't seem to help, i hate being fat, i find myself getting very upset and wound up when theres mirrors around and if i see photos of myself but the need to not be judged and singled out because i'm doing something different takes precedence. My inability to stick to it totally is making me unhappy, i know i'm not helping myself
Other people have commented that i look like i've lost weight, but i can't see it at all, when i see myself, i don't see any difference to my overall shape. The only difference i've noticed is that my wrists and fingers are smaller and now my jewellery won't stay on, leading to more stress and upset when i've realised that the diamond ring my boyfriend gave me as an anniversary present has fallen off yet again. As for my clothes, my jeans no longer stay up at all, by the time i get to the top of a set of stairs, they're usually round my ankles, but when i was shopping over the weekend, i couldn't get the next size on at all. Not being able to see a difference is adding to how unhappy i'm becoming, because it doesn't seem worth it, especially as the rest of my group have all lost over a stone, and i still have quite a way to go to get there, admittedly i'm a week behind, but even in my first week when i was good for the entire week, i lost 5lbs compared to their 7lbs +, one lady lost 12lbs. They are all maintaining large losses each week, and whilst i'm aware that i won't because i'm not totally sticking to it, i feel that i'm dropping massive amounts of calories and becoming increasingly unhappy to lose the same amount as my friends who are undertaking slimming world. For the most part, during the week i stick to it completely, its the weekends that are the problem.
I'm really sorry for waffling on a lot, and if you managed to stick with that, then thank you for reading, and if you didn't, i don't blame you. Basically, does anyone have any tips on how to get over these hurdles? How do i make it more bareable to have a food pack in public, especially as i hate consuming something that was not purchased in that particular eating establishment (i'm the sort of person who will buy something i don't want just so i can use the toilets without feeling bad because i wasn't a customer)
I've was pointed in the direction of this forum when i first started on LL, had a little gander but didn't join. But now i'm really struggling and i've decided maybe its time i got a little bit of support before i give in, so here i am!
I've been on LL for 3 weeks now, i start week 4 tomorrow and i'm not really finding any improvement in coping with it all. My mum has recently just finished her initial 3 months and she looks fantastic, but i don't seem to have the same sense of willpower as her.
I've sort of reached breaking point with this, and i'm finding it very difficult to stick to the food packs when i'm with other people. Being home alone and at work is easy, i can quite happily cook for the household and not have the slightest temptation to pick. The problems are just when other people are eating around me.
I feel i have a particularly unhealthy relationship with food, i go through stages where i just don't care what i eat because i'm already fat and others where a small comment about what i'm eating will through me off so much that i physically can't force myself to eat in front of people in fear that people will think i deserve to be fat because of what i eat. The food packs are falling into the last category. I cannot bring myself to have a food pack whilst i'm out and about, i won't even take the packs with me because i'm terrified of what people will think - i'm aware that it shouldn't matter but it really does, i spent 18 months refusing to leave my home for anything other than family visits and work because i got so stressed out when leaving, i'm better at it now, but i still struggle to do a lot of things outside the house by myself. At home during meal times, i just feel deprived, the two lads i live with can eat what they like and not gain an ounce.
My feelings during these times are allowing me to justify to myself why its ok to skip a pack here or there and replace it with something like cooked, unprocessed meat. At the same time, its not really helping me lose weight. I know it isn't but it doesn't seem to help, i hate being fat, i find myself getting very upset and wound up when theres mirrors around and if i see photos of myself but the need to not be judged and singled out because i'm doing something different takes precedence. My inability to stick to it totally is making me unhappy, i know i'm not helping myself
Other people have commented that i look like i've lost weight, but i can't see it at all, when i see myself, i don't see any difference to my overall shape. The only difference i've noticed is that my wrists and fingers are smaller and now my jewellery won't stay on, leading to more stress and upset when i've realised that the diamond ring my boyfriend gave me as an anniversary present has fallen off yet again. As for my clothes, my jeans no longer stay up at all, by the time i get to the top of a set of stairs, they're usually round my ankles, but when i was shopping over the weekend, i couldn't get the next size on at all. Not being able to see a difference is adding to how unhappy i'm becoming, because it doesn't seem worth it, especially as the rest of my group have all lost over a stone, and i still have quite a way to go to get there, admittedly i'm a week behind, but even in my first week when i was good for the entire week, i lost 5lbs compared to their 7lbs +, one lady lost 12lbs. They are all maintaining large losses each week, and whilst i'm aware that i won't because i'm not totally sticking to it, i feel that i'm dropping massive amounts of calories and becoming increasingly unhappy to lose the same amount as my friends who are undertaking slimming world. For the most part, during the week i stick to it completely, its the weekends that are the problem.
I'm really sorry for waffling on a lot, and if you managed to stick with that, then thank you for reading, and if you didn't, i don't blame you. Basically, does anyone have any tips on how to get over these hurdles? How do i make it more bareable to have a food pack in public, especially as i hate consuming something that was not purchased in that particular eating establishment (i'm the sort of person who will buy something i don't want just so i can use the toilets without feeling bad because i wasn't a customer)