curvesncurls
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Hi all.
Apologies first of all for the really whingy post, but I'm in pieces today. SW going really well this time round, got my stone sticker and first ever SOTW this week.
Met this guy about three weeks ago, we've been bumping into each other, he's been very flirty (overly so with drink) and quite shy without. He's European, so bit of a culture difference, but boy, it's so nice to have been treated well. Asked me out for a cup of coffee, but we didn't end up meeting up. I thought he hadn't showed, he thought the same of me - we didn't have each others numbers.
Roll on to last night. Met him in the local bar again. He made a bee-line for me - really drunk. Filling me full of compliments, apologising for having to leave me the previous week (dubious reason!) and complaining why I hadn't shown up for the coffee. He wanted my number or to give me his, and he asked me to wait for him til he's back. He was getting a bit sleazy, but I just put it down to drink talking. He asked me if he'd seen me with my mother the day before and made some disparaging remark about if I was gonna turn into her when I was older??!! Horrible.
Next thing I know, he's off with his friend for a walk around, and then up at the bar chatting up this other girl. He starts kissing her and after 20 mins, they leave together. I was GUTTED. :cry:I know, I know, no loss - but really, why can it never just work out? I left and thankfully he's away home to see family for a month, so at least I don't have to see him and I can get myself together.
I'm in bits - I feel fatter than ever and the confidence that was blossoming is in pieces. He's so not worth it, but I can't seem to let it go. In my mind, I'm thinking that if only I wasn't this fat, it would have been different. That he's only been chatting me up cos he thinks the fat girl will be easy. Why would a guy (who's nearly 40 btw, living with a teenage son) just want to mess me around and humiliate me like that? Is that all I'm worth?
And any tips for regaining confidence in myself and my body, cos it's my journey that I'm on?
Apologies for the long post, but I'm really on the floor here. :wave_cry::cry:
Apologies first of all for the really whingy post, but I'm in pieces today. SW going really well this time round, got my stone sticker and first ever SOTW this week.
Met this guy about three weeks ago, we've been bumping into each other, he's been very flirty (overly so with drink) and quite shy without. He's European, so bit of a culture difference, but boy, it's so nice to have been treated well. Asked me out for a cup of coffee, but we didn't end up meeting up. I thought he hadn't showed, he thought the same of me - we didn't have each others numbers.
Roll on to last night. Met him in the local bar again. He made a bee-line for me - really drunk. Filling me full of compliments, apologising for having to leave me the previous week (dubious reason!) and complaining why I hadn't shown up for the coffee. He wanted my number or to give me his, and he asked me to wait for him til he's back. He was getting a bit sleazy, but I just put it down to drink talking. He asked me if he'd seen me with my mother the day before and made some disparaging remark about if I was gonna turn into her when I was older??!! Horrible.
Next thing I know, he's off with his friend for a walk around, and then up at the bar chatting up this other girl. He starts kissing her and after 20 mins, they leave together. I was GUTTED. :cry:I know, I know, no loss - but really, why can it never just work out? I left and thankfully he's away home to see family for a month, so at least I don't have to see him and I can get myself together.
I'm in bits - I feel fatter than ever and the confidence that was blossoming is in pieces. He's so not worth it, but I can't seem to let it go. In my mind, I'm thinking that if only I wasn't this fat, it would have been different. That he's only been chatting me up cos he thinks the fat girl will be easy. Why would a guy (who's nearly 40 btw, living with a teenage son) just want to mess me around and humiliate me like that? Is that all I'm worth?
And any tips for regaining confidence in myself and my body, cos it's my journey that I'm on?
Apologies for the long post, but I'm really on the floor here. :wave_cry::cry: