Thanks girls sorry I have not been on for a few days I went for a scan today as I have been having really bad stomach cramps and they confirmed the worst that my baby has a hole in her heart and fluid on her brain so they said the pains I am getting are probably going to lead to miscarriage so I asked them if I can just take tge tablets to speed things up as this is truly killing me so I saw the doctor as the terminate the pregnancy two doctors have to agree which they did so I have taken my first tablet to stop everything from continuing then I have to go back to the labour ward on Wednesday to have some more and deliver my daughter. I am going to get to see her and touch her and get a photo and foot prints so I will always have a part of her with me x