VoodooQueen
New Member
I can't remember what it's like to feel normal. Every day I wake up feeling rough, hurting, aching, feeling low. I am and have been struggling with my weight all my life. Some years I managed better than others where I felt in control, at one time I even felt I had a life - quite a nice, fun filled one at that.
Now, after gaining so much weight to take me over what I consider is normal, I feel trapped, confused and find that I am trapped on the dark side; always thinking of death and how time is running out.
I know there are many reasons for this, I guess growing older and still struggling to control my compulsive eating is now taking its toll physically and mentally.
I walk to work and walk home, and the chest pains I get on walking make me feel as though I will die. I am sure many of the symptoms I feel daily are panic and created because I feel so awful about my weight.
Common sense tells me its because I'm unfit and still very very heavy and haven't really exercised for years. Can anyone tell me when this passes, at what point will I begin to feel that I can move again and walk without thinking I am dying? I find it quite scary and it doesn't help that my panic attacks seem to have come back.
Can you remember when you were very overweight and how you felt? Has it changed being able to lose the bulk of weight?
Now, after gaining so much weight to take me over what I consider is normal, I feel trapped, confused and find that I am trapped on the dark side; always thinking of death and how time is running out.
I know there are many reasons for this, I guess growing older and still struggling to control my compulsive eating is now taking its toll physically and mentally.
I walk to work and walk home, and the chest pains I get on walking make me feel as though I will die. I am sure many of the symptoms I feel daily are panic and created because I feel so awful about my weight.
Common sense tells me its because I'm unfit and still very very heavy and haven't really exercised for years. Can anyone tell me when this passes, at what point will I begin to feel that I can move again and walk without thinking I am dying? I find it quite scary and it doesn't help that my panic attacks seem to have come back.
Can you remember when you were very overweight and how you felt? Has it changed being able to lose the bulk of weight?