Sez
has started again!!
I am so incredibly hungry and its getting worse. This is very much more difficult now than it ever was at the start. My stomach rumbles, it even feels painful and sore at times. I want to eat, I SOOOO want to eat. I am fighting this battle every day, every hour, every minute & every second. There is little enjoyment in this now. I have failed so many times and I know I am going to fail again.
WTF cant I get it together? I read all your fantastic posts & I am so inspired then I feel hungry, eat and throw up. Its not good & I am ashamed.
I am so terrified that when I do finally throw in the towel (for sure I wont make management) that I will just let rip, and eat everything in sight.
I have learned nothing at all. ATM I am a fat blimp, pretending she can lose weight & paying lip service to this plan. I can dish out all the good advice in world, and I honestly mean it, but as for taking it...well I am just bluddy pathetic minded and feeble.
Sorry everyone, thats how I am feeling.
oh & the one thing I had to be proud of is now falling out in clumps too. Its so unfair, fat, pathetic and now going bald.
Sh**t.
WTF cant I get it together? I read all your fantastic posts & I am so inspired then I feel hungry, eat and throw up. Its not good & I am ashamed.
I am so terrified that when I do finally throw in the towel (for sure I wont make management) that I will just let rip, and eat everything in sight.
I have learned nothing at all. ATM I am a fat blimp, pretending she can lose weight & paying lip service to this plan. I can dish out all the good advice in world, and I honestly mean it, but as for taking it...well I am just bluddy pathetic minded and feeble.
Sorry everyone, thats how I am feeling.
oh & the one thing I had to be proud of is now falling out in clumps too. Its so unfair, fat, pathetic and now going bald.
Sh**t.