Emmaline
Hippety Hop!
And the feeling is terrible.
I know only too well that depression can creep up on you at the most unexpected time and this is one of those times. And then I get so I don't trust anyone, I wonder why people are writing to me and then why more people don't respond to my posts. I write some hopefully helpful comments on other peoples diaries etc., and then feel I am ignored or even that person doesn't even come back to that thread, - so what's the point? I ask myself. And why bother? Perhaps I'm too old and decrepid, at least I know it's not because I am too fat! Perhaps I come over too much like that old granny 'cos I know that's what I am!
I went on a binge last night and today and as I am so deflated and dissapointed I just want to curl up and cry but I'm even past that. It's this time of year perhaps, or the fact that snow is on the way back apparently which will mean I shall be on my own for xmas. Everyone in this block of flats go off to family or friends and the place is deathly quiet 24/7. Have to stop posting on here now till I feel better as otherwise I start putting down things that are not very good to write.
I know only too well that depression can creep up on you at the most unexpected time and this is one of those times. And then I get so I don't trust anyone, I wonder why people are writing to me and then why more people don't respond to my posts. I write some hopefully helpful comments on other peoples diaries etc., and then feel I am ignored or even that person doesn't even come back to that thread, - so what's the point? I ask myself. And why bother? Perhaps I'm too old and decrepid, at least I know it's not because I am too fat! Perhaps I come over too much like that old granny 'cos I know that's what I am!
I went on a binge last night and today and as I am so deflated and dissapointed I just want to curl up and cry but I'm even past that. It's this time of year perhaps, or the fact that snow is on the way back apparently which will mean I shall be on my own for xmas. Everyone in this block of flats go off to family or friends and the place is deathly quiet 24/7. Have to stop posting on here now till I feel better as otherwise I start putting down things that are not very good to write.