skinnylove_88
Full Member
Yep, haven't eaten a morsel since 14th May (my birthday) and here's what happened today.
It's my friend's birthday tomorrow and I had gone in Greggs which is a few doors away from our office first thing this morning just to see if they do birthday cakes. I could tell within a few seconds of walking in that they don't, but by then I was in the shop on my own with two women behind the counter looking at me, waiting for my order. Without even thinking for a second, I asked for a slice of pepperoni pizza and a white choc chip cookie. This is at about 7:30am! I had already been to Sainsburys and got her some Maltesers and Haribo sweets for tomorrow. I walked without a thought in my mind back to my office, went upstairs and thought "I'm giving these to someone else". I knew I didn't really want to cheat. When I got in the office, the building was open but the main room I needed to get into to get to my desk was locked and the only room I could really access was the kitchen. So in I go, all by myself (I'm always first in the office). And I scoffed the pizza slice, then the cookie, then I opened the Haribo sweets I hadn't even bought for myself and polished those off throughout the morning! I didn't even stop there. At lunchtime I was in such a mood with myself and it was like "well I might as well make the most of it" so I went and got ANOTHER pizza slice for lunch.
I have felt mild pains in my stomach and felt -very- sick ever since. And it's 10:20pm now. I have a sick bucket next to me and I feel like I need to be sick so badly, but it's not happening. I keep doing that horrible dry barf thing where you go to be sick and nothing comes out. I had my shake in the morning before I left for work as usual, didn't have one at lunchtime, and tried to have the dinner one this evening but only got through a couple of mouthfuls before chucking the rest. I couldn't stomach it and have just been sipping water.
To put it briefly, I feel like sh*t and it SO WASN'T WORTH IT. All I've done is added at least another week on to my 'journey', and after my rubbish loss last week and being all upset about it and you guys saying "don't worry, the loss will be better this week"....... well now it won't, and it's all my fault.
I actually don't want to even look at food again until I'm done with LT. I don't want it near me.
It's my friend's birthday tomorrow and I had gone in Greggs which is a few doors away from our office first thing this morning just to see if they do birthday cakes. I could tell within a few seconds of walking in that they don't, but by then I was in the shop on my own with two women behind the counter looking at me, waiting for my order. Without even thinking for a second, I asked for a slice of pepperoni pizza and a white choc chip cookie. This is at about 7:30am! I had already been to Sainsburys and got her some Maltesers and Haribo sweets for tomorrow. I walked without a thought in my mind back to my office, went upstairs and thought "I'm giving these to someone else". I knew I didn't really want to cheat. When I got in the office, the building was open but the main room I needed to get into to get to my desk was locked and the only room I could really access was the kitchen. So in I go, all by myself (I'm always first in the office). And I scoffed the pizza slice, then the cookie, then I opened the Haribo sweets I hadn't even bought for myself and polished those off throughout the morning! I didn't even stop there. At lunchtime I was in such a mood with myself and it was like "well I might as well make the most of it" so I went and got ANOTHER pizza slice for lunch.
I have felt mild pains in my stomach and felt -very- sick ever since. And it's 10:20pm now. I have a sick bucket next to me and I feel like I need to be sick so badly, but it's not happening. I keep doing that horrible dry barf thing where you go to be sick and nothing comes out. I had my shake in the morning before I left for work as usual, didn't have one at lunchtime, and tried to have the dinner one this evening but only got through a couple of mouthfuls before chucking the rest. I couldn't stomach it and have just been sipping water.
To put it briefly, I feel like sh*t and it SO WASN'T WORTH IT. All I've done is added at least another week on to my 'journey', and after my rubbish loss last week and being all upset about it and you guys saying "don't worry, the loss will be better this week"....... well now it won't, and it's all my fault.
I actually don't want to even look at food again until I'm done with LT. I don't want it near me.
Ok so you might add a week to you lipotrim, in the grand scheme of things this could be worse. Where would you be had you not begun in the first place? 
