corioboria
Cambridge Counsellor
I'm off to my friend's wedding tomorrow, the reason why I started CD in the first place.
And I weigh 11 stone, which is the first target I set myself (I've now revised my goal to 10 stone). So I'm super pleased with myself.
I've decided to let myself out of ketosis for the weekend so I can have a few drinks and join in at the party & not feel like some party pooper - after all I am chief bridesmaid and she is my very best friend.
So I started the trip out of ketosis yesterday.
I also decided tocelebrate my success and let myself have a treatsize (2 squares) bar of Cadburys chocolate, the first I have tasted in 11 weeks. Chocolate has always been my weakness.
I was expecting to find that it wasn't anything special and hopefully that I was cured. But my reaction shocked me.
It was so deliciously marvellously sweet and creamy and made me feel simply wonderful. As soon as I finished it, I had a desperate craving to eat more, indeed maybe to finish the entire packet of funsizes that are there for my children.
I really felt possessed, more out of control than I have been at any time on the diet. But somehow I walked out of the kitchen and pulled myself back from the brink.
I've learned a big lesson today - it's clear that I am going to have to watch myself with chocolate for a long time - possibly for ever. But I'm proud of myself for not cracking.
And I weigh 11 stone, which is the first target I set myself (I've now revised my goal to 10 stone). So I'm super pleased with myself.
I've decided to let myself out of ketosis for the weekend so I can have a few drinks and join in at the party & not feel like some party pooper - after all I am chief bridesmaid and she is my very best friend.
So I started the trip out of ketosis yesterday.
I also decided tocelebrate my success and let myself have a treatsize (2 squares) bar of Cadburys chocolate, the first I have tasted in 11 weeks. Chocolate has always been my weakness.
I was expecting to find that it wasn't anything special and hopefully that I was cured. But my reaction shocked me.
It was so deliciously marvellously sweet and creamy and made me feel simply wonderful. As soon as I finished it, I had a desperate craving to eat more, indeed maybe to finish the entire packet of funsizes that are there for my children.
I really felt possessed, more out of control than I have been at any time on the diet. But somehow I walked out of the kitchen and pulled myself back from the brink.
I've learned a big lesson today - it's clear that I am going to have to watch myself with chocolate for a long time - possibly for ever. But I'm proud of myself for not cracking.