Littleslimmingbee
Gold Member
Please dont feel the need to reply- im just gunna rant abit!
All i can think about is being a mummy, its all iv ever wanted to be.. and i suppose it's just being magnified because now that im engaged i know that iv met the man of my dreams and one day il have my own proper, family.. and joes brother had his little boy last night (sob, i wanted the first boy! lol) and my best friend is also 6months gone, my neice is turning one.. and alot of the mums at work are falling pregnant again.
Im young, far too young.. im not married yet which is so very important to me (im very traditional in that way) Iv so much going on at work and many other comitments.. but oh my, iv felt this way for years, but every now and then.. the urge is so overwhelming and the thoughts consume me, everything makes me emotional and all i can think of is how i want that.. how i want to be a mummy, watch my own child grow into thier own person.. i bumped into a girl i trained in hairdressing with, shes a year younger than me and got herself knocked up on purpose to keep her abusive boyfriend. Somthing shes quite honest about.. i was almost hysterical by the time i got home after she had said 'if i'd known how much hard work it is, i would have never have had him' .. i just thought, no matter how hard it is, you never say you would give him back given the chance.. after hearing more of how her home life is etc, i was just so upset, poor little boy. She doesnt deserve it, she doesnt want to work, doesnt want to look after him herself, doesnt think its all that rosey now her plan has backfired, man i was mad.
I know that deep down im not ready, were not ready and if i fell pregnant tomorrow my first thought would be.. 'ahh ****' lol, but i really cant help it. I just want to have a child of my own.
its so so silly, and i will snap out of it soon enough, i always do.. babys make me so broody. Havnt even seen the new baby yet and im already going gushy!
sorry, random rant- dont really know why i thought i'd share lol.. had to rant to someone who'd listen so OH doesnt run off haha
All i can think about is being a mummy, its all iv ever wanted to be.. and i suppose it's just being magnified because now that im engaged i know that iv met the man of my dreams and one day il have my own proper, family.. and joes brother had his little boy last night (sob, i wanted the first boy! lol) and my best friend is also 6months gone, my neice is turning one.. and alot of the mums at work are falling pregnant again.
Im young, far too young.. im not married yet which is so very important to me (im very traditional in that way) Iv so much going on at work and many other comitments.. but oh my, iv felt this way for years, but every now and then.. the urge is so overwhelming and the thoughts consume me, everything makes me emotional and all i can think of is how i want that.. how i want to be a mummy, watch my own child grow into thier own person.. i bumped into a girl i trained in hairdressing with, shes a year younger than me and got herself knocked up on purpose to keep her abusive boyfriend. Somthing shes quite honest about.. i was almost hysterical by the time i got home after she had said 'if i'd known how much hard work it is, i would have never have had him' .. i just thought, no matter how hard it is, you never say you would give him back given the chance.. after hearing more of how her home life is etc, i was just so upset, poor little boy. She doesnt deserve it, she doesnt want to work, doesnt want to look after him herself, doesnt think its all that rosey now her plan has backfired, man i was mad.
I know that deep down im not ready, were not ready and if i fell pregnant tomorrow my first thought would be.. 'ahh ****' lol, but i really cant help it. I just want to have a child of my own.
its so so silly, and i will snap out of it soon enough, i always do.. babys make me so broody. Havnt even seen the new baby yet and im already going gushy!
sorry, random rant- dont really know why i thought i'd share lol.. had to rant to someone who'd listen so OH doesnt run off haha