Nope, sorry. The post of "ultimate failure" has already been filled.
You can't be an ultimate failure if you're posting here. That shows grit and determination.
What's your head saying when you have a nibble of this and a nibble of that? Is it saying, "Oh, it doesn't matter, it's low carb, it won't hurt?" Or is it saying, "Oh go on, there aren't many calories in that - it'll be fine!"? Or is it saying, "Never mind, you can always start again tomorrow. It'll only take a few days to put the damage right."?
All very familiar to those of us who've been around here a while. It's quite possible you've heard that voice say all 3 of those things (I know I have!).
Guess what? The voice is wrong! It
does matter, it
will hurt and you
do mind!
The only cure is to stop nibbling. To do this diet properly. You might be ok doing SS+ as Kira suggests but I find when I'm in the place you're in now that the only way is to get back on the 100% wagon. Do it like the first time. Get obsessive about your water intake and not having anything that isn't on the plan. Go right back to basics and stick to shakes and soups and porridge for the first 2 weeks - no bars, mix-a-mousse or water flavouring until week 3.
You can do this. That break away with your husband probably messed with your head, even though it didn't seem to hurt at the time. Your brain starts doing all sorts of calculations about what you wish you'd eaten and how long it'll be before you can do it again. That's why it's sooo hard to take a leave of absence from this diet. But it can be done. There are lots of people around here at the moment who are proving it can be.:clap:
So, gonna join us on Planet Hardcore Cambridge Weight Plan?