kakabubbles
Full Member
I have had a rubbish week...I weighed in last week and had stayed the same after being 100% good...I didn't freak out, it happens. Then it was my totm managed to not go crazy, was down to 16 12 so had lost 5lbs and saw the 16's woohoo!
Then hubby got some bad news his gran has a massive brain tumour and will not recover.
Sad news for us anyway but complicated even further due to the fact he is estranged from everybody on that side of the family other than his gran and her husband who is also in very poor and worrying health at the minute.
Cue the mind games...his mother,aunty,sister and female cousins made it so difficult for him to visit or get any updates on her health. These women are awful and I gained a lot of weight years ago when they all fell out with my hubby. I still stayed well and truly on the wagon.
Night in with my girls drinking many bottles of wine and eating horrific snacks.. I ate weight watchers snacks and had a couple of bacardi's and diet coke.
Then on Thursday my already really bad cold got so much worse and hubby left for a trip to England to visit his brother. I miss him so much and feel rubbish and now I have fallen off the wagon lol.
I eat when I'm ill, it makes me feel better. It started off with a well-meaning hearty stew and home-made bread and choc cake from my mum's boyfriend. He gave me good portions of everything, tiny bit of cake etc and then said I know you are on a diet but it's only one meal and I made it as healthy as poss and it's only small portions.
Yeah till I added the stuffing and yorkshire puds and potatoes lol.
It made me feel so much better it is magic lol. But then I thought well I'll have a bad day and get back on the diet 2moro. So had lots of crisps and biscuits all weight watchers stuff, but far too much.
Did I wake up and start again today....nope. Ate better meals but really bad snacks today.
I'm not going to beat myself up, I am proud of myself for doing well all through the other issues. It took me so much longer to break than usual.
I am telling you all this for full disclosure lol. I know you will all make me feel better which isn't even why I am posting this. I just know that when I am active on this website I am much more motivated. I feel that by typing this all out and telling somebody I can move on from it and forgive myself.
I will be starting again 2moro.
I will be good.
I will be posting on this site.
And I will see 16'12 on the scales again very soon.
xoxo
Then hubby got some bad news his gran has a massive brain tumour and will not recover.
Sad news for us anyway but complicated even further due to the fact he is estranged from everybody on that side of the family other than his gran and her husband who is also in very poor and worrying health at the minute.
Cue the mind games...his mother,aunty,sister and female cousins made it so difficult for him to visit or get any updates on her health. These women are awful and I gained a lot of weight years ago when they all fell out with my hubby. I still stayed well and truly on the wagon.
Night in with my girls drinking many bottles of wine and eating horrific snacks.. I ate weight watchers snacks and had a couple of bacardi's and diet coke.
Then on Thursday my already really bad cold got so much worse and hubby left for a trip to England to visit his brother. I miss him so much and feel rubbish and now I have fallen off the wagon lol.
I eat when I'm ill, it makes me feel better. It started off with a well-meaning hearty stew and home-made bread and choc cake from my mum's boyfriend. He gave me good portions of everything, tiny bit of cake etc and then said I know you are on a diet but it's only one meal and I made it as healthy as poss and it's only small portions.
Yeah till I added the stuffing and yorkshire puds and potatoes lol.
It made me feel so much better it is magic lol. But then I thought well I'll have a bad day and get back on the diet 2moro. So had lots of crisps and biscuits all weight watchers stuff, but far too much.
Did I wake up and start again today....nope. Ate better meals but really bad snacks today.
I'm not going to beat myself up, I am proud of myself for doing well all through the other issues. It took me so much longer to break than usual.
I am telling you all this for full disclosure lol. I know you will all make me feel better which isn't even why I am posting this. I just know that when I am active on this website I am much more motivated. I feel that by typing this all out and telling somebody I can move on from it and forgive myself.
I will be starting again 2moro.
I will be good.
I will be posting on this site.
And I will see 16'12 on the scales again very soon.
xoxo