Tiger Girl
Full Member
Hello lovely Mini's
Back from my endless work trip overseas and a whole load of highs and lows and mental acrobatics have taken place!
Haven't had a WI for 3 weeks and no idea where I am to be honest. Due to the circs of where I was and what I was doing and the crazy hours and logistics - you're just going to have to trust me on this one! - I ended up finally breaking my official 'Golden Period' of complete abstinence on Day 156. Had to have real food for almost 3 days, then 2 days back on packs then another 2 days on real food. I'm just not sure there is enough space on this thread to fully explain what it was like, so I won't. But the aftermath has thrown me massively.
I'm hanging on in there on a day by day basis - just. I've got some mixed feelings about what I'm doing, when I'm going to be done and sticking with it. Also, my hair is faling out in a big way. I thought this didn't happen until you were back on food? And it was definitely happening before I had any real food, but surely after only 2 very short stints back on real food it shouldn't be happening at such a scary rate? Any thoughts on this?
So, all in all it's a very mixed up time. I was so proud of my abstinence record and now the halo has slipped. I'm not massively beating myself up over it, the circumstances were really out of my control, but overall this final stretch is just proving way more difficult than I'd ever imagined, bearing in mind the 2+ st I've got to lose, I didnt imagine feeling like this until I had a stone left to go.
I've exhausted myself with thinking about the whole thing. I'm totally knackered.
Other than that, I'm pleased to be back and catching up on everyone's posts
Back from my endless work trip overseas and a whole load of highs and lows and mental acrobatics have taken place!
Haven't had a WI for 3 weeks and no idea where I am to be honest. Due to the circs of where I was and what I was doing and the crazy hours and logistics - you're just going to have to trust me on this one! - I ended up finally breaking my official 'Golden Period' of complete abstinence on Day 156. Had to have real food for almost 3 days, then 2 days back on packs then another 2 days on real food. I'm just not sure there is enough space on this thread to fully explain what it was like, so I won't. But the aftermath has thrown me massively.
I'm hanging on in there on a day by day basis - just. I've got some mixed feelings about what I'm doing, when I'm going to be done and sticking with it. Also, my hair is faling out in a big way. I thought this didn't happen until you were back on food? And it was definitely happening before I had any real food, but surely after only 2 very short stints back on real food it shouldn't be happening at such a scary rate? Any thoughts on this?
So, all in all it's a very mixed up time. I was so proud of my abstinence record and now the halo has slipped. I'm not massively beating myself up over it, the circumstances were really out of my control, but overall this final stretch is just proving way more difficult than I'd ever imagined, bearing in mind the 2+ st I've got to lose, I didnt imagine feeling like this until I had a stone left to go.
I've exhausted myself with thinking about the whole thing. I'm totally knackered.
Other than that, I'm pleased to be back and catching up on everyone's posts