LISACDVIRGIN
Silver Member
Hello Every1!
I feel nervous writing this and I don't even know why?!
I started this diet back in October and did terribly. The longest I went was 4 days and then it was all over. I kept saying I would restart but I never did and as time went by I kept making excuses not to start. But I am ready now, and I won't fall for any more excuses!! At 17 stone 9lbs I am the heaviest I have ever been and spend about 16 hours of every day depressing about it and dreaming of being the 11 stone I once was! Since I had my little boy I have had put on 3 stone and the fatter I get the more unhealthy I become and the less active I become and I don't want to be that type of mum. I hate that every thing I do feels like a huge chore and the sweat pours out of me just because of my weight. I've recently come to a point also when I can't even stomach shopping for clothes because its so god awful. If you knew me a few years ago however, you would have known a shopaholic who was never away from the sales and stuff!! I can't look at myself in photos, I can barely look at myself in the mirror and I just in general can't stand myself right now! I also though can't stand myself for being so down all the time as I used to be so happy and positive and the life and soul of the party......now you're lucky if i go to the party!
Anyway, my son Alex will be 1 year old on Tuesday and this milestone has really give me a kick up the bum. On his second birthday I want to be healthy and happy and I am determined to do so!!! I recognise a lot of the names on here from October and you were all so lovely and supported me and I'm sure i'll get the same this time round!
No excuses this time, i'm gonna do it!!!!!!!!!
Love and suppoet to all xxxxxxx
I feel nervous writing this and I don't even know why?!
I started this diet back in October and did terribly. The longest I went was 4 days and then it was all over. I kept saying I would restart but I never did and as time went by I kept making excuses not to start. But I am ready now, and I won't fall for any more excuses!! At 17 stone 9lbs I am the heaviest I have ever been and spend about 16 hours of every day depressing about it and dreaming of being the 11 stone I once was! Since I had my little boy I have had put on 3 stone and the fatter I get the more unhealthy I become and the less active I become and I don't want to be that type of mum. I hate that every thing I do feels like a huge chore and the sweat pours out of me just because of my weight. I've recently come to a point also when I can't even stomach shopping for clothes because its so god awful. If you knew me a few years ago however, you would have known a shopaholic who was never away from the sales and stuff!! I can't look at myself in photos, I can barely look at myself in the mirror and I just in general can't stand myself right now! I also though can't stand myself for being so down all the time as I used to be so happy and positive and the life and soul of the party......now you're lucky if i go to the party!
Anyway, my son Alex will be 1 year old on Tuesday and this milestone has really give me a kick up the bum. On his second birthday I want to be healthy and happy and I am determined to do so!!! I recognise a lot of the names on here from October and you were all so lovely and supported me and I'm sure i'll get the same this time round!
No excuses this time, i'm gonna do it!!!!!!!!!
Love and suppoet to all xxxxxxx