jabbathehut
This is the last time!!
I could scream. I had a pants week last week and had decided on Monday to ditch the diet because I just kept cheating, and figured that the best thing to do was to take a little time out and start back when my focus returned.
Anyway, woke up yesterday morning and something had clicked again, had a 100% SS day yesterday and a 100% SS+ (4 shakes) day today. I feel like I am back on track.
I so badly want and NEED to make this work. Whilst I am 38 lbs lighter than I was 11 weeks ago, I still have the same again to lose to be considered 'healthy'.
I have a lot of things coming up in the next few weeks socially and will be on and off it a bit. I don't want my life to revolve around food but nor do I want it to exclude it altogether. I suppose I want the best of both worlds. I've gone from 17 stone 3lbs to 14 stone 9, with my personal goal set at 12 stone 7lbs. Right now I'd be happy to achieve 13 something.
I don't really know what the point of this post is but I feel so fed up, annoyed that my 'messing around' has slowed my losses to pathetic ones, frustrated that I can't join my hubby and son for meals, angry that I have such little self control......the list of negative emotions is endless. Right now I don't even feel any pride in my achievements so far, just disappointment at what I could...or indeed SHOULD have achieved by now.
Aaaaaaaaarrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! :cry:
Anyway, woke up yesterday morning and something had clicked again, had a 100% SS day yesterday and a 100% SS+ (4 shakes) day today. I feel like I am back on track.
I so badly want and NEED to make this work. Whilst I am 38 lbs lighter than I was 11 weeks ago, I still have the same again to lose to be considered 'healthy'.
I have a lot of things coming up in the next few weeks socially and will be on and off it a bit. I don't want my life to revolve around food but nor do I want it to exclude it altogether. I suppose I want the best of both worlds. I've gone from 17 stone 3lbs to 14 stone 9, with my personal goal set at 12 stone 7lbs. Right now I'd be happy to achieve 13 something.
I don't really know what the point of this post is but I feel so fed up, annoyed that my 'messing around' has slowed my losses to pathetic ones, frustrated that I can't join my hubby and son for meals, angry that I have such little self control......the list of negative emotions is endless. Right now I don't even feel any pride in my achievements so far, just disappointment at what I could...or indeed SHOULD have achieved by now.
Aaaaaaaaarrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! :cry:
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