Hello. I've been holding on out in my post a few days because I've been a bit manic at work. Finally have a free minute to update.
So far so good. Had a night out with friends on Tuesday, had 2 pints of larger and some steak and chicken wings. It could have been avoided but as usual my husband was spurring me on to eat. He is the devil when it comes down to food. He loves food and he feels the need to get me to eat with him. I'm sick to death of this. I've decided to be stronger now and not let him manipulate me. I love him dearly but he needs to understand. :sigh:
Anyhow, unscathed I carried on 100% from Wednesday onwards and so far so good.
I'm definitely well in the K-Zone because the symptoms are all there. I feel great and really euphoric today (sh!te weather and all) and I can certainly feel that I'm getting use to the little food intake now. The meals are all going down a treat (apart from the bars which I'm really struggling with. The synthetic taste doesn't sit too well with me and I'm not going to order them again)
I know due to my faltering I'll have a slower loss than many but the progress mentally I'm making is incredible. I've been so much more efficient in controlling portions and maximising the ingredients I use. If halved the amount of food I normally prepare for us in a meal and it still fills us up. I literally cut everything in half and save the other half in the freezer. I mix my food meal packs with real lean beef of turkey mince and veg and it's like having a proper meal, filling and satisfying. I love a crispy shake in the morning and then a late afternoon lunch of real food followed by a shake for desert. I feel mostly full all the time so I have to force myself to eat.
I've rediscovered so many ingredients in the kitchen like herbs and spices and mince and tuna and chicken and new ways of making veg taste great. I've lived off junk food and take away for so long now that it's really killed my culinary skills and I've sort of lost my way in something I used to love so much. When I was slim and single I use to cook for myself and my friends and family on a regular basis and I always loved doing so. I was always in the kitchen cooking great meals from scratch, and I'm slowly finding my way back to that again. Even my weekly shopping is being meticulously planned instead of just banging a bunch if ready meals in the trolley etc. it's really apparent to me where I've lost my way. I once made soups and sauces and breads and deserts and pies. Everything we ate was home made, now everything is shop bought. It's pitiful.
Anyhow, I'm on a 7 day run at work so in all weekend. And in a way I'm glad to be away from home and my husband. Away from the temptation to eat the wrong things. I'm going to make it count.
Hope everyone is happy and well.
Over and out.
TT x