I apologise now because it's silly o'clock and I can feel a dodgy ramble coming on...
I'm having a mini meltdown here - can't sleep because I'm sooooo annoyed with myself and also really scared that if
I wait until tomorrow to write this, I'm going to wake up having put all my weight back on! (completely rational of course...!).
So first I'd like to be honest about this Christmas / New Year - I first decided in November that I would allow myself to eat on Christmas day and boxing day and then get back onto the packs... By the middle of December this changed to allowing myself to chill out a bit, enjoy some social events over the few days around Christmas and then get back onto it the day after boxing day... this didn't quite work out as planned...
Since boxing day (when I decided that I'd eaten enough junk for all my friends and family) I have been half-heartedly trying to get back on the wagon and today, well yesterday now actually, was the 1st day of the new year, so no excuses left.... and I still couldn't do it! I lasted until this evening when I suddenly just caved in and wolved down whatever I could get my hands on!
I feel like I'm failing and out of control and I don't know how to stop it!! I was so close to my goal just a couple of weeks ago and now it feels like I'll never get there :cry:
I'm thinking of asking my LLC to lock me in her office for the next week so that I can't eat anything, except she'd probably come in to find all her stock gone!
I know that only I can do this, but if anyone has any ideas on how I can get back into abstinence, please let me know!
Thanks, Monkey x
I'm having a mini meltdown here - can't sleep because I'm sooooo annoyed with myself and also really scared that if
I wait until tomorrow to write this, I'm going to wake up having put all my weight back on! (completely rational of course...!).
So first I'd like to be honest about this Christmas / New Year - I first decided in November that I would allow myself to eat on Christmas day and boxing day and then get back onto the packs... By the middle of December this changed to allowing myself to chill out a bit, enjoy some social events over the few days around Christmas and then get back onto it the day after boxing day... this didn't quite work out as planned...
Since boxing day (when I decided that I'd eaten enough junk for all my friends and family) I have been half-heartedly trying to get back on the wagon and today, well yesterday now actually, was the 1st day of the new year, so no excuses left.... and I still couldn't do it! I lasted until this evening when I suddenly just caved in and wolved down whatever I could get my hands on!
I feel like I'm failing and out of control and I don't know how to stop it!! I was so close to my goal just a couple of weeks ago and now it feels like I'll never get there :cry:
I'm thinking of asking my LLC to lock me in her office for the next week so that I can't eat anything, except she'd probably come in to find all her stock gone!
I know that only I can do this, but if anyone has any ideas on how I can get back into abstinence, please let me know!
Thanks, Monkey x