You're going to be going through a really tough time emotionally for quite some time hon... *hugs*
Think of losing weight as your positive thing through it all. It's something you can control and influence, it will give you more self esteem, as you say, and is something so personal to you that nobody else can take away from you...if you see what I mean!
It would be so easy to turn to food to comfort yourself, but this wouldn't be a good thing...so your idea to lose weight is perfect. You'll be healthier, feel better and probably stronger to deal with all the sh*t you're going to have to deal with.
Good luck...and don't forget that there's oodles of support here when you need it.
Sorry to hear that hun, i know exactly how you are feeling now, however you will get through it, you need to stay strong and make yourself your first priority now. Starting sw is a great idea, lose your weight and boost your confidence and get out there and enjoy yourself. Big hugs to you xxx
Hey.. so sorry to hear this...time is a great healer and hopefully through time you can wipe him from your mind...it will be hard, theres no doubt about it but mayeb joining SW will give you something to focus on and then he will see what a sucessful strong woman you are. Any way i can help...just ask!
I'm so sorry, what a pig. Try and think of all the horrible times with him, don't dwell on the good times it will make you feel worse. Is he having a mid life crisis? You need to grieve for a while, but it's a brand new start for you too, and the possibilities for your own future are endless. Good luck x