Hello everyone (assuming anyone reads this), I have been looking at this forum for the last few years while on various different diets and finally feel like I should post something. To give myself an outlet and hopefully for some support when it is rough. I have been on diets as long I can remember, I always felt like the biggest at school and began restricting myself there and then at the first year of college I got down to my lowest ever weight. From then its always been a bit of a struggle. Gaining a bit losing a bit gaining a bit more. Until this year after many different diets I found myself at over 14 stone and trying to put on a pair of size 16 trousers for my new job and failing miserably something broke inside and I knew I had to make a change. This time I have a huge reason on the horizon to spur me on. In November I am getting married to the best person I have ever met and I owe him the chance to have that day without hiding away or complaining or descending into panic. And more than that I owe it to me. This time its not just a vanity project, I need things to change on the inside too. I want to have better eating habits and a better relationship with food. I want to get out of the binge starve cycle and the crippling self loathing that makes everything in life so difficult. 2.5 years ago I went on lighter life and in 4 months I got down to 10 stone 3 lbs and it was honestly the happiest I have ever been. I want that feeling back of waking up and not having to find specific clothes that I need to wear but can put on anything and feel good in it. But more than that I want the feeling that I achieved it. Sadly the weight loss from Lighter life was to short lived and although I have tried to go back a few times its just never worked the same again for me. So its onto slimming world, the weight losses maybe slower and that is something I need to get my head round but I feel so much better already. I started on new years day and have been sticking to it ever since. Had a couple of difficult days due to awful cramps from TOTM so hoping I can push past it and not give up like I would usually do. I have lost 8.5 lbs so far and am hoping to lose about a stone by mid feb as I am heading to a wedding fayre with my mum to try on a wedding dress for the first time. Have been too scared to up to now but, despite not being anywhere near my goal I feel like it might spur me on. Well that was more than I expected to write, well done if you got through that!