kingiejules
Full Member
I'm on 100% TFR
First of all, I have many reasons for starting this diet, some are silly and some are serious. A comment was passed by my boyfriends ex a few weeks ago (who isnt that small herself!) and I knew I had to do something. I had always found myself comparing myself (not just to her) to friends and other people so its time I became that someone, I used to be comparing myself to!
An even bigger inspiration was my friend. She has lost 3 stone in 2 months on the diet so she asked me to go on it as she re-fed and was starting again. So we're diet buddies now
Day 1: 05/01/12 LET'S GO!
This day was relatively easy, i think it really was the excitement that got me through and as I read the posts on the forum, I kept wishing I was further along or nearer my weigh in day just to see results (I can be very impatient
). See I've done diets before to no avail but the last shake diet I did (the tesco one) I lost 2 stone quite quickly think it was over 3 months (but that was with eating a meal) so i wanted to try something a little bit more extreme to see how I would cope. I drank the chocolate and strawberry shakes with the chicken soup and i felt ok. I'm not a huge fan of the soup and since have found the vanilla shake the most horrible. So I went onto asos and boohoo and saved a few items in a cart in smaller sizes so I at least could aim for them!
Day 2: 06/01/12- Food in my Face Day!
This was the day that I really felt the hunger pangs but as above, I remembered why I was doing the diet and went browsing at more dresses. There's a shop in my town that only sells up to size 12 so off I went to give myself that kick in the ass. Then I had a phone call from my college supervisor who wanted to go to lunch in the local hotel to discuss my thesis. Off I went, nervous as hell, as when he says lunch, he means a dinner plus more and sat down. First thing I ordered was a large pot of tea. He asked me what food I wanted and I told him I wasnt hungry and he said to get something small. I ended up telling him what I was doing and he told me he would put me to the test and ate a huge fry in front of me plus a dessert. I was fine because I had my tea but I'm just glad I was on day 2- had that been yesterday, I may have caved. Later that night, I had a family going away party and of course there was finger food and wine. I sat with a large thermos cup of black tea in the crowd and then the questions started. The excuse I was driving didnt suffice so I told a few people. Now I am the largest out of all of them ie they are all size 10 and under and I have always been a 14-16. It was hard to hear the comments that were passed and the misunderstandings of the diet. Trying to explain why I was doing the diet, that it was for me, not my boyfriend, not anyone else didnt really help so I ended up leaving early. Only one of them was supportive and if I achieve my goal weight, she asked me to be bridesmaid at her wedding. Not that I particularly wanted to be but its a slight motivation towards the long term future to keep the weight I lose off. All I can say is thank god for minimins app on my phone and for steve jobs for making the iphone. I probably would have given in to shut them up that night but I'm glad I didnt- at look at me now gaining more confidence and some willpower! Woo!
Day 3: 07/01/12 I'm hungryyyyy!
This was clear out day. As its only us two living in the house, with him working shifts and eating at work, I had realised the amount of food that I had accumulated just for me as well as the amount of wine! So out with the shopping bags and I filled 6 large tesco bags. I was slightly ashamed. All this food was for me and me alone and I can only imagine what poundage it would have led to had I not made the decision to go forward with weightloss. Feeling kind of sad with myself I went down town. I met a friend and the "lunch" conversation came up, I couldnt refuse her so I went. Lunch ended up just being a pot of tea between us which was fab. Made it so much easier. The evening was hard as I went to my boyfs parents house and I usually have wine with his mam when I go there....not anymore. So I drank water from a wine glass and what was weird was found myself actually sipping water like i would wine just to give me the feeling that i was drinking wine.
Day 4: 08/01/2012 Food??? Eh!
Woke up this morning late about 11:30am (which I have been doing since I started the diet and I could never do before?!?) and jumped straight on this to see if there were any new posts. I completely forgot that I had to have my shake until about about 1:30. I had no hunger pangs at all. I noticed myself in early ketosis on day 2 and my mouth was very dry and the yucky breath was there. I do have a problem drinking all the water but managed two litres yesterday so thats all i'm going to do a day. I don't feel any desire for food whatsoever, my boyfriend is currently eating a massive roll beside me, I can smell it but I'm cringing at it at the same time. A week ago, i would have made him half it with me. See, this is what I have found so good. I have always had a love hate relationship with food and I realised my eating is driven by emotions but also my surroundings. I used to eat because others were eating, not because I wanted to, but because I felt that I had to and having realised that now I wish I had started this diet a year ago. My start weight was 14st 2lbs, I'm 24 and I'm 5ft 6. I don't look overly heavy because I'm tall but I live in heels and that helps. But it is in no way healthy for me to be that. I always denied my weight and would not stand on a scales, I just used sizes to gauge how I was. But even at my heaviest I was a small 16 or large 14 and kept eating because 14 was a good size to be etc. It was only when I saw a few pictures recently of myself from the back that i was horrified to see rolls of fat. I felt disgusting that I put so much effort into how I looked but that i actually didnt look good. It doesn't really help that I have a 38DD chest either (which I hope to lose a lot of). I just looked frumpy and not good. Some of my friends are a 14 and they look fab but I think I was just in denial of my true size and was squeezing into things to make myself look good when I really wasn't. I find this diet so therapeutic, I don't think I would ever have found a counselor as good as the men and women on this or the diet itself at how it makes you reflect on yourself and plan for the future. I know its just day 4 but I can already see a change. my "size 14" jeans are actually fitting me as a size 14 and not a squeeze. So I went back to the internet and onto asos and boohoo and I ordered those dresses!
I hope to be on this diet 10 weeks with a week after of re-feed and then maintenance. As it stands now, I have no desire to ever go back on food again but thats just silly talk and I know that. I know I have to eat again at some stage and I will, it'll just be healthier and smaller than before. I have so much to look forward to this year and have set a date in February as a kind of coming out party for my new figure. Nobody outside my family knows I'm on this diet- I haven't told my friends, mainly because I want to surprise them. I've used the excuse of not going out until February because of work and won't really see them until around that time anyways with the commitments that they have themselves. What I really want to do is rub it in the faces of those who called me fat and called me stupid names before out of complete jealousy and trying to hurt me. I'm determined to kick my habits and get back into my size 10-12s asap. 10st is my goal weight but I would like to get into the 9s.
Next week I'm going to introduce walking and start putting my dog through his paces. I'm a teacher also, so I know next week when we start back to school is going to be a hard one but I'm just glad that I'll be busy and walking around that school will be good exercise also!!
Just wanted to share my journey so far and my story. In relation to the shakes it doesn't really matter to me what they taste like, if I like them or not, I know they will give me results but i'll be getting rid of vanilla.
Before going on this diet I did research into the ins and outs of it and read the nasty reviews. To be honest, I've never felt more comfortable on a diet and this is just the beginning. All diets have some risks, people CAN gain back wait if they don't work to keep it off. That's life- that's not the result of a diet. I know I'm gonna work my ass off to keep my weight off and make it stay off because I don't want to lose myself again and for once I want to be able to pick things off a rack or out on a website and know that they will fit me, so I can feel good in myself and not have to suck my tummy in to look good in an outfit or to look thinner in a photo.
My first weigh in is Thursday 12th January so I will hopefully post it and let you know how i go. I'm a bit concerned I wont lost the average stone for the first weigh in but any loss is a good loss in my eyes and i'm just going to keep going!
Never give up hope! You are worth it and so am I!
Today can only get better and tomorrow will be so much easier! Keep telling yourself that!
Over and Out!
J x
Day 4: 08/01/12. I need sleep
It's half twelve at night, I can't sleep and I've eight 40minute classes of hormonal teenagers to deal with, I might as well be joining them tomorrow. Tummy is growling away which can only mean good things while other half is snoring happily beside me, just want to punch him! He's even thinking of starting this but he wants to see my week one results which is fair enough. To finish off day 4 the rubbish he had was followed by more rubbish. I think he's testing me. He has to be. So out to the blender and I'm using up the second last vanilla as KateDublin recommended. I know I'm not hungry, I couldn't be. I'm on my second bottle of water (actually proud of myself) and I'm happy out that for once I'm not finishing off the food he has left over (I'm used to it, mainly do it for the starving children in Africa, ye know what I'm on about ;-) ). I think I made another break through today too, shortly after posting I put on the runners and off I went for a 2 mile walk, bottle of water in one hand and the dog in the other. Collapsed to a cup of lovely black tea when I came home and did a bit of work for tomorrow. I'm quite nervous for tomorrow actually. I normally have a huge lunch so I know there will be questions and probably a shop run, but I know I can do it. And then there's the cake and biscuits, all my new enemies! I'm not going to let it beat me though. Hunger will pass with water. It's just the sleeping I've to get around but honestly haven't felt as good in ages and as determined! maybe it might rub off on the kids tomorrow. Here's hoping! Over and out!
Julie x
First of all, I have many reasons for starting this diet, some are silly and some are serious. A comment was passed by my boyfriends ex a few weeks ago (who isnt that small herself!) and I knew I had to do something. I had always found myself comparing myself (not just to her) to friends and other people so its time I became that someone, I used to be comparing myself to!
An even bigger inspiration was my friend. She has lost 3 stone in 2 months on the diet so she asked me to go on it as she re-fed and was starting again. So we're diet buddies now
Day 1: 05/01/12 LET'S GO!
This day was relatively easy, i think it really was the excitement that got me through and as I read the posts on the forum, I kept wishing I was further along or nearer my weigh in day just to see results (I can be very impatient
). See I've done diets before to no avail but the last shake diet I did (the tesco one) I lost 2 stone quite quickly think it was over 3 months (but that was with eating a meal) so i wanted to try something a little bit more extreme to see how I would cope. I drank the chocolate and strawberry shakes with the chicken soup and i felt ok. I'm not a huge fan of the soup and since have found the vanilla shake the most horrible. So I went onto asos and boohoo and saved a few items in a cart in smaller sizes so I at least could aim for them!Day 2: 06/01/12- Food in my Face Day!
This was the day that I really felt the hunger pangs but as above, I remembered why I was doing the diet and went browsing at more dresses. There's a shop in my town that only sells up to size 12 so off I went to give myself that kick in the ass. Then I had a phone call from my college supervisor who wanted to go to lunch in the local hotel to discuss my thesis. Off I went, nervous as hell, as when he says lunch, he means a dinner plus more and sat down. First thing I ordered was a large pot of tea. He asked me what food I wanted and I told him I wasnt hungry and he said to get something small. I ended up telling him what I was doing and he told me he would put me to the test and ate a huge fry in front of me plus a dessert. I was fine because I had my tea but I'm just glad I was on day 2- had that been yesterday, I may have caved. Later that night, I had a family going away party and of course there was finger food and wine. I sat with a large thermos cup of black tea in the crowd and then the questions started. The excuse I was driving didnt suffice so I told a few people. Now I am the largest out of all of them ie they are all size 10 and under and I have always been a 14-16. It was hard to hear the comments that were passed and the misunderstandings of the diet. Trying to explain why I was doing the diet, that it was for me, not my boyfriend, not anyone else didnt really help so I ended up leaving early. Only one of them was supportive and if I achieve my goal weight, she asked me to be bridesmaid at her wedding. Not that I particularly wanted to be but its a slight motivation towards the long term future to keep the weight I lose off. All I can say is thank god for minimins app on my phone and for steve jobs for making the iphone. I probably would have given in to shut them up that night but I'm glad I didnt- at look at me now gaining more confidence and some willpower! Woo!
Day 3: 07/01/12 I'm hungryyyyy!
This was clear out day. As its only us two living in the house, with him working shifts and eating at work, I had realised the amount of food that I had accumulated just for me as well as the amount of wine! So out with the shopping bags and I filled 6 large tesco bags. I was slightly ashamed. All this food was for me and me alone and I can only imagine what poundage it would have led to had I not made the decision to go forward with weightloss. Feeling kind of sad with myself I went down town. I met a friend and the "lunch" conversation came up, I couldnt refuse her so I went. Lunch ended up just being a pot of tea between us which was fab. Made it so much easier. The evening was hard as I went to my boyfs parents house and I usually have wine with his mam when I go there....not anymore. So I drank water from a wine glass and what was weird was found myself actually sipping water like i would wine just to give me the feeling that i was drinking wine.
Day 4: 08/01/2012 Food??? Eh!
Woke up this morning late about 11:30am (which I have been doing since I started the diet and I could never do before?!?) and jumped straight on this to see if there were any new posts. I completely forgot that I had to have my shake until about about 1:30. I had no hunger pangs at all. I noticed myself in early ketosis on day 2 and my mouth was very dry and the yucky breath was there. I do have a problem drinking all the water but managed two litres yesterday so thats all i'm going to do a day. I don't feel any desire for food whatsoever, my boyfriend is currently eating a massive roll beside me, I can smell it but I'm cringing at it at the same time. A week ago, i would have made him half it with me. See, this is what I have found so good. I have always had a love hate relationship with food and I realised my eating is driven by emotions but also my surroundings. I used to eat because others were eating, not because I wanted to, but because I felt that I had to and having realised that now I wish I had started this diet a year ago. My start weight was 14st 2lbs, I'm 24 and I'm 5ft 6. I don't look overly heavy because I'm tall but I live in heels and that helps. But it is in no way healthy for me to be that. I always denied my weight and would not stand on a scales, I just used sizes to gauge how I was. But even at my heaviest I was a small 16 or large 14 and kept eating because 14 was a good size to be etc. It was only when I saw a few pictures recently of myself from the back that i was horrified to see rolls of fat. I felt disgusting that I put so much effort into how I looked but that i actually didnt look good. It doesn't really help that I have a 38DD chest either (which I hope to lose a lot of). I just looked frumpy and not good. Some of my friends are a 14 and they look fab but I think I was just in denial of my true size and was squeezing into things to make myself look good when I really wasn't. I find this diet so therapeutic, I don't think I would ever have found a counselor as good as the men and women on this or the diet itself at how it makes you reflect on yourself and plan for the future. I know its just day 4 but I can already see a change. my "size 14" jeans are actually fitting me as a size 14 and not a squeeze. So I went back to the internet and onto asos and boohoo and I ordered those dresses!
I hope to be on this diet 10 weeks with a week after of re-feed and then maintenance. As it stands now, I have no desire to ever go back on food again but thats just silly talk and I know that. I know I have to eat again at some stage and I will, it'll just be healthier and smaller than before. I have so much to look forward to this year and have set a date in February as a kind of coming out party for my new figure. Nobody outside my family knows I'm on this diet- I haven't told my friends, mainly because I want to surprise them. I've used the excuse of not going out until February because of work and won't really see them until around that time anyways with the commitments that they have themselves. What I really want to do is rub it in the faces of those who called me fat and called me stupid names before out of complete jealousy and trying to hurt me. I'm determined to kick my habits and get back into my size 10-12s asap. 10st is my goal weight but I would like to get into the 9s.
Next week I'm going to introduce walking and start putting my dog through his paces. I'm a teacher also, so I know next week when we start back to school is going to be a hard one but I'm just glad that I'll be busy and walking around that school will be good exercise also!!
Just wanted to share my journey so far and my story. In relation to the shakes it doesn't really matter to me what they taste like, if I like them or not, I know they will give me results but i'll be getting rid of vanilla
.Before going on this diet I did research into the ins and outs of it and read the nasty reviews. To be honest, I've never felt more comfortable on a diet and this is just the beginning. All diets have some risks, people CAN gain back wait if they don't work to keep it off. That's life- that's not the result of a diet. I know I'm gonna work my ass off to keep my weight off and make it stay off because I don't want to lose myself again and for once I want to be able to pick things off a rack or out on a website and know that they will fit me, so I can feel good in myself and not have to suck my tummy in to look good in an outfit or to look thinner in a photo.
My first weigh in is Thursday 12th January so I will hopefully post it and let you know how i go. I'm a bit concerned I wont lost the average stone for the first weigh in but any loss is a good loss in my eyes and i'm just going to keep going!
Never give up hope! You are worth it and so am I!
Today can only get better and tomorrow will be so much easier! Keep telling yourself that!
Over and Out!
J x
Day 4: 08/01/12. I need sleep
It's half twelve at night, I can't sleep and I've eight 40minute classes of hormonal teenagers to deal with, I might as well be joining them tomorrow. Tummy is growling away which can only mean good things while other half is snoring happily beside me, just want to punch him! He's even thinking of starting this but he wants to see my week one results which is fair enough. To finish off day 4 the rubbish he had was followed by more rubbish. I think he's testing me. He has to be. So out to the blender and I'm using up the second last vanilla as KateDublin recommended. I know I'm not hungry, I couldn't be. I'm on my second bottle of water (actually proud of myself) and I'm happy out that for once I'm not finishing off the food he has left over (I'm used to it, mainly do it for the starving children in Africa, ye know what I'm on about ;-) ). I think I made another break through today too, shortly after posting I put on the runners and off I went for a 2 mile walk, bottle of water in one hand and the dog in the other. Collapsed to a cup of lovely black tea when I came home and did a bit of work for tomorrow. I'm quite nervous for tomorrow actually. I normally have a huge lunch so I know there will be questions and probably a shop run, but I know I can do it. And then there's the cake and biscuits, all my new enemies! I'm not going to let it beat me though. Hunger will pass with water. It's just the sleeping I've to get around but honestly haven't felt as good in ages and as determined! maybe it might rub off on the kids tomorrow. Here's hoping! Over and out!
Julie x
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