leelea
Full Member
So I thought I would start a diary here to keep me on track and hopefully get some tips and support from you guys.
I started calorie counting again on Monday but it didn't start too well as my boyfriend and brother ordered pizza. But since I haven't eaten anything like that in so long it didn't agree with me and made me sick
I've been trying to eat 4 meals a day as I find it really works for me and generally I get hungry every 3 hours or so so it means that I'm not snacking between meals. However last night I'd gone to my boyfriends to have dinner and when I got there he was still working and had to nip out. I was already hungry when I got there and had to wait an hour for him to sort himself out and after all that he had nothing in the fridge. By this point I could have eaten the mouldy block of cheese he had and I was craving junk.
Eventually we went to Tesco which is a bad idea when I'm starving as I was eyeing up the chocolate, doughnuts and crisps. It was so hard to say no when my bf offered to 'buy me something nice' and even as I walked to the crisp aisle I was hoping they wouldn't have my favourite ones there, but they did and I stood and talked to myself for 5mins thinking how angry I'd be with myself if I ate them. So I walked away.
In the end we had salmon, salad and cous cous which was lovely and had strawberries and cream for afters which took me about 100cals over my amount which I'm ok with considering how hungry I was and all the crap I resisted eating.
It's so hard for my boyfriend to understand as he has a healthy relationship with food. If he wants something he just eats it but he isn't aware of the constant battle I find myself in and the resulting guilt and shame I feel if I eat something I know I shouldn't have.
I haven't craved junk food for about 2 months but it just shows that if I let myself get that hungry I will become grumpy and nasty and want to eat everything in sight and undo all my hard work.
Sorry I've gone on a bit there lol
Just wanted to introduce myself
Hope you're all ok
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I started calorie counting again on Monday but it didn't start too well as my boyfriend and brother ordered pizza. But since I haven't eaten anything like that in so long it didn't agree with me and made me sick
I've been trying to eat 4 meals a day as I find it really works for me and generally I get hungry every 3 hours or so so it means that I'm not snacking between meals. However last night I'd gone to my boyfriends to have dinner and when I got there he was still working and had to nip out. I was already hungry when I got there and had to wait an hour for him to sort himself out and after all that he had nothing in the fridge. By this point I could have eaten the mouldy block of cheese he had and I was craving junk.
Eventually we went to Tesco which is a bad idea when I'm starving as I was eyeing up the chocolate, doughnuts and crisps. It was so hard to say no when my bf offered to 'buy me something nice' and even as I walked to the crisp aisle I was hoping they wouldn't have my favourite ones there, but they did and I stood and talked to myself for 5mins thinking how angry I'd be with myself if I ate them. So I walked away.
In the end we had salmon, salad and cous cous which was lovely and had strawberries and cream for afters which took me about 100cals over my amount which I'm ok with considering how hungry I was and all the crap I resisted eating.
It's so hard for my boyfriend to understand as he has a healthy relationship with food. If he wants something he just eats it but he isn't aware of the constant battle I find myself in and the resulting guilt and shame I feel if I eat something I know I shouldn't have.
I haven't craved junk food for about 2 months but it just shows that if I let myself get that hungry I will become grumpy and nasty and want to eat everything in sight and undo all my hard work.
Sorry I've gone on a bit there lol
Just wanted to introduce myself
Hope you're all ok
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