Let's try this again

Thank you all!!
I feel like a bit of a fraud getting congratulations from you all when you all know how bumpy this road has been!

Still going strong and 100% though I'm thrilled to say aaaand I got offered the college place I interviewed for a while back :D:D:D

So happy/nervous/excited and hopeful for the future!
 
No matter how bumpy it's been, you're still travelling in the right direction!

You deserve congratulations more for persevering when you're struggling, not less!
 
I really must start updating my diary more often.
There's quite a lot going on at the moment, more than I ever believed could be when I wrote that original post.

Thanks to jewel, I joined meetup.com a while back and have gotten to know a few lovely girls through it and been using my spare time in a much better way than I used to (eating!) I hate a play date with one girl and her daughter tomorrow which I'm really looking forward to. We're going to go for lunch but I'm not worried, I'm just going to be really strict and still to things I'm allowed on a lifestyle day. Last week I had a play date with a different mam and we went for lunch I just had half a goats cheese salad (was just rocket, a few olives and some goats cheese). I actually asked specially for a half portion which I don't bother doing normally and of course end up eating it all!
On Saturday after work in the charity shop I'm meeting a few girls for the cinema and food after but I might just have a coffee, I'm thinking money too!
And on Sunday I'm going for a 2hr coastal walk and a swim in the sea if I'm brave enough!

I struggled last night for the first time of this restart, even opened justeat.ie but then I took a few moments to think about how great everything is going right now and how I'd love loads of sea swims this summer and realistically I know I wouldn't dream of it if I don't keep on losing weight.

I have finally stopped "waiting till I lose weight" though, which I was so guilty of in every single area of my life! I feel so free now but I also know I need to continue on and it has to be said, I really do love slim and save! The variety is wonderful and the fact you can have the odd day you have lunch out and being careful make sure you're not breaking anything!

I hope everyone's well, I can really feel summer creeping in now it's very exciting! Off out with the wee one for an Easter egg hunt :D
 
Thanks Clin :thumbup:

Kidney pain is back with a vengeance :confused: has been quite sore for a few days but as I was in the zone I stuck my head in the sand but yesterday at the egg hunt (which was great fun) it was honestly so sore even some of the other parents were like "are you ok??"
Have a doc appointment at 11.20am, going to tell her I'm on this. Failed to mention it the last time but honestly I'd be very reluctant to come off it.
I do think it's ketosis related though but have been reading about a few remedies rather than come off but will obviously see what the doc says :(
 
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Oh guys, the doctor was brilliant. Has already organised scans and tests for my kidney but told me I absolutely must come off this diet and any form of low carb diet as apparently they aren't good for your kidneys. I had already read such things and it wouldn't bother me if I didn't already have a kidney issue, I don't want to hurt an already weak kidney.

I feel so lost and upset though that the hell am I going to do? I feel like I'm just going to pile everything back on and not lose anything else. I really don't know what to do now :(
 
Really glad he took it seriously and is doing everything possible.

With regard to the diet why not just keep it really simple. Sign up to myfitnesspal and even though you won't be low carbing follow a few simple hints to keep your blood sugar stable and stop you losing control. Obviously follow any advice your doctor has given over this but the following may be useful.

Protein with every meal and snack
Carbs mainly in the form of vegetables, beans etc
Don't be afraid of good fats some nuts, avocado, seeds on salads, a bit of butter or oil.
Keep away from refined flour and sugar
Fruit feels healthy but can tip those of is who are carb sensitive over the edge. I'd go easy or have it with yoghurt to slow down the release of the sugar

Eating cleanly will take the stress off your body too. That's what I'm aiming for and am about 70% there I think - work in progress.

And importantly stay here and keep getting support. Takes a bit more planning than packs but you can do it :)
 
Oh thank you so so much Clin, as ever you swoop in with sound and kind advice!
I think you're right, I was going to join a slimming class down the road (a small, Irish one) but it all goes by the food pyramid which I really just don't particularly agree with and I'd hate to pay money and six through an hour long class listening to something I don't particularly believe.

I wonder could I still use my packs though like one or two instead of maybe breakfast or lunch?

I feel so disheartened and scared, scared about my future weight wise and scared to find out what exactly is the matter with this kidney :confused:
 
I'd definitely still have packs if it gives you security. It's not that there is anything bad in them -- just not enough for you now and I think they will ground you sugar wise. I am still having a porridge in the morning and occasionally a soup but I add some veg sticks and an odd cube of cheese or some light soft cheese or a bit of ham (I'm having a bit of an issue with cheese so I do have to watch it) Then just have a good balanced satisfying meal in the evening. And if you are used to having a bar for a snack then go with that too. I find other snacks are where it can start to get out of control. Try not to think of it as losing control but adding in lovely nutritious extras to make you better. Here's hoping it is something quite simple that they can treat easily and you are soon back to normal. It's just another chance to learn a bit about how to manage with food.
 
Just really thinking out loud here.
I'm seriously thinking about jumping back on for the 5 weeks until my holiday. Thinking back over what the doctor said, it's a kidney infection that I have and she said I was dehydrated which would make sense as I wasn't drinking enough water so I'm thinking of coming back on plan and really getting plenty of water into me plus the extra veg and milk allowance.

I just feel so lost I'm nowhere near where I want to be. Even to get into the 15s would feel better to continue on my own but it's very difficult right now. I was out last night and had a great time but I still felt so huge I'm not ready to stop right now :(
 
I wouldn't put your health at risk. Can you not do WW or something until you're sure it's safe?
 
Thank you funny, I know you're right. Was just feeling pretty desperate.

I've had an idea though, I was thinking of sticking to the packs as I have so many and in fairness it's not them that are causing the problems, it's ketosis, and eating fruit like grapefruit etc as she recommended? Does that sound like a good idea? I'd still be eating few enough calories to lose weight, be getting all my nutrition and wouldn't be in ketosis?

I'm going to start this tomorrow and see how I go, any input is more than welcome x
 
I think it would work, as long as you can do that! I would say to keep your cals at around 1500 to lose weight without it making you ill.

It's horrible when you get the momentum up and something derails you :-(
 
I know funny I just don't trust myself to be away from the packs just yet, I really know how ridiculous that sounds but they're a safety net for me right now. Plus I'm really broke and I could do with using them up!

I just weighed myself and somehow I'm still in the 16s, only by a quarter pound but I'm still there! That's given me a little kick keep on truckin, I'm having a grapefruit now and it's surprisingly lovely.

I really hope I can stick to this!x
 
Well guys, I'm finishing up here now. There's no point in clutching at straws and possibly damaging my health so I've decided to go over to 5:2, I started the book this morning and watched the documentary and my first fast day is almost complete. The added bonus is that I can still use my S&S products on fast days which is brilliant because I really do love them and they're excellent from a calorie point of view and nutritional so I'm feeling a little positive again.

Thanks SO much for all the support, I'm leaving over 3st down which is more than I ever thought possible when I wrote my first post. Let's just hope I can keep it going!x x x
 
I'M BAAAACK!!

I've been dabbling around with the 5:2 but to be honest I haven't been very good but my binge days seem to be a thing of the past which is a huge achievement for me :thumbup:

I've been sent to kidney specialists and had scans etc and for the moment they aren't sure what the problem is, looks like it's just scarring from an operation as a child and nothing to be worried about! The pain is pretty constant when I eat rubbish food or drink alcohol , actually worse than when I was following S&S!

I'm back the same weight I left, 16st 13lbs which I'm pretty happy about because previously on vlcds I've piled the weight back on pretty fast so I've maintained despite really enjoying my social life and going out every weekend!

So my mission for the moment is to lose 3stone then try to keep it off for a few months plus try lose some more on 5:2 then come back again for the next 2. I think I learn a lot more this way!

Finally have my mojo back :D
 
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